existential dread for now

I wonder how weird it would feel to remember how you felt as an akumatized person. If they could remember anyway. Or maybe they don't know what happened but have lingering feelings from it. It'd be interesting to explore I think. Because they must feel different. They became so fixated on one objective that their emotions regarding it must be enhanced like crazy. And something I've thought was strange, they very frequently deny their name and say "I'm not name, I'm villain name now" or something. It's so interesting because no one is making them want a new personality just a power. So if it happens with many people I wonder how it'd feel, to have this intense fixation with only the one emotion turned up and only one thought and this true sense of this is who you are now forever. Even if they know they'll be defeated in the moment they've accepted that this is genuinely who they are now as a person. That's wild. If they could remember the feeling later that would feel so weird. It'd be nice to talk to people that get the feeling and hard to explain to people that don't. And the feelings aren't always injustice or anger. Makes me think of Kagami with her cloud akumatization. The relief people feel when they're akumatized and suddenly don't feel their pain must be like drugs. I also wonder about when the butterfly is used for good purposes, like in the Paris special, I wonder what that would feel like, if certain situations could still have a toxic relationship with the akuma, if they have more autonomy to their feelings, and things like that. I wonder.