B. 繭/B. Jian

I’ve seen through

every piece

of your soul.

Yet, you’d rather

believe I’m a

blind man with sight.

She fell for him

He fell for her harder

But I fell the hardest

no need to mind

the coffee stain,

spilled over

the saucer

no cup should be wiped

no saucer should be replaced

no spoon was pulled out of the cup in the wrong angle

no saucer was placed in a harsh manner

no table was startled the moment you moved your legs

nothing was ruined. no one was denigrated.

as sunlight shined through the window,

the saucer, with newly formed coffee stain on it,

became a bit messy, a bit casual

just like your languor

warm and lovely

Sadly,

we don’t complete each other.

It’s just about the same parts of our hearts

similarly shattered.

諷刺

可惜

誰也完整不了誰

只是你我心裡相同的地方

“Let’s get back to where we were!”

You suggested

And led me to the building

Which was once for us.

I shook my head and withdrew my hand,

Leaving you frustrated and myself guilty.

But I needed to step away,

For I saw the building had been charred.

1. They see a plane and admire how massive it is,

Without any idea where it will land

2. They see a plane and analyze its speculation.

The destination always brings a lot of discussions

3. They feel a plane above their heads, but they know what they should really keep their eyes on.

What is the need to care about a plane?

I letted them

dwell in my house

decorate its interior

and create memories

So when they leave

with no intention to extend the contract

I still have the wonders

they left when they were kind

you said you were looking for light—

so you walked into me

like it might be hiding

behind my eyes.

but I wasn’t enough,

not bright, not burning,

just a quiet room

you mistook for dawn.

you talked of escape

but folded yourself

into the dark

like it’s home.

you said you wanted fire

but breathed easier in ash.

I won’t lie—

I was never your sun.

I flicker. I could sometimes get put out.

I don’t lead anyone out.

but if someday

your fingers twitch toward the edge—

if the dark stops

making sense—

I’ll be there,

not as a beacon,

but as a hand

pulling you toward

your own blaze.

所想之物

你說你在找光——

於是你走進我

深信光藏在我眼後

但我遠遠不夠

無可發亮 無可燃燒

僅僅是沈默的密室

任你誤以為能帶你走向黎明

你嘴上說著逃離

卻蝸居在黑暗

彷彿洄游到歸宿；

嘴上說想要明火

卻甘心吞吐餘燼

容我誠實以告——

我從不是你的太陽

明明滅滅 甚至消跡殆盡

沒法帶誰到哪裡

但若有一天

當你攢緊手指——

當黑暗再也入不了你眼——

我會出現

不作為一道光

而是一隻手

把你拉往

In the quiet dawn, where dreams unfurl,

Many sought the elusive pearl,

A figure named Happiness, serene and still,

Yet few could climb that distant hill.

From afar, I called, with hope's gentle plea,

"Why do you stay so far from me?"

Happiness turned, with a patient grace,

"I stand here waiting, in this humble place.

Many chase with fervor, yet never advance,

For the chase becomes their only dance.

I do not flee, nor do I hide,

I simply wait, with arms open wide.

Oh, dear seeker, do not be deceived,

For those who found me often left aggrieved.

I am not the treasure you wish to hold,

Nor the milk that warms when nights grow cold.

I am not the bloom of a radiant flower,

Nor the map to a hidden tower.

I am but a key, a simple mug of water,

An empty vase, where aspirations may waver."

Before I stood by Happiness's side,

I dreamed of riches, of joy magnified.

Yet here I find, in the quiet of day,

I invited you to make a long list

Of the ones beloved by you the most

Until you mention the name

Written on the VIP card in my hand.

You listed the closest ones,

Ones you’re in good terms with,

And even ones you’re not quite familiar with.

Yet the long list hasn’t ended.

Extending the length of the long list

Without the maximum number of the invited ones,

I wonder, instead of how many people you’ve invited,

If you would ever mention your own name,

Responses don’t need to be immediate

As our timelines part ways.

Delayed must be our messages,

Even if we read the previous ones hours ago.

Unanswered chat room still remains pleasant,

Because I know you’ll talk to me;

Because you know I’ll talk to you;

見送り

もう我を見送ったから

二度と誘わないてくれ

ここからちゃんと見える

昔のより暗くなった室内照明

We should part ways

And never see each other again

Yet the interchange was too close.

Ridiculously close.

So I lied to you

That I’d go in the same direction,

Only to stay close to you

Until my tears

Blurred the signs

交流道

你我本該分道

永遠各自揚鑣

無奈交流道太近

近得離譜

才對你撒謊

說跟你同方向

只為了多待在你身邊

直至淚灑