My greatest advice to myself is give yourself a bigger chance. Believe that you're going to have an amazing life and picture what that life will look like with someone you love,trust and feel safe with. It will get better and go up hill from here.
That person that falls in love with you, will pray for you and with you. She will gently guide you with love and at time clingyness. She will reteach you trust,accountability and above all us she will behonest. She will show you what being funny is and make it okay for you to smile again. She will also show you her loyalty and faithfulness.
This time you won't feel neglected,and I mean seriously. She will take it personal if she even gets a nudge that someone is trying ti take advantage or hurt you. She will forgive you and although hard,she will help you regulate.
You will love her more than Chris loved the church,and your gentleness.














