Endo's particular depiction of neurodivergence in wind breaker is so amusing to me, especially combined with his obsessive tendencies. It’s a fairly familiar combination of autism+maybe adhd+burnt out gifted kid… but like. He burns out so early in life and he’s still a child when the world starts looking dull and grey and he’s just about accepted this boring path for himself and then.

AND THEN. Enter takiishi with his fire coloured hair and bloody hands and his ass way on top of a flimsy metal structure and it’s just so instantly captivating and different that Endo basically had no choice but to get violently pulled into his orbit. Unsurprising, considering he’s been waiting to feel something, anything and this weird kid just checks all the boxes. Then he finds that he’ll always be held at arms length and that chika barely registers his presence so a singular word of response feels like a waterfall of validation.

The curiosity turns into an adoration turns into an obsession turns into a hyperfixation turns into a special interest and he’s willing to do just about anything at all to get a look, a reaction, a right hook to the face and he drinks it all up because the twisted validation is so rare and unpredictable that every time it comes his way it feels like a fresh dose of dopamine straight into his brain.

And then he meets another new shiny toy that piques his interest again and it scratches his brain jusssst right. And Endo is absolutely not normal about Sakura almost instantly because wdym this guy with the interesting hair and the interesting eyes and the rage of a thousand suns has directed his laser focused attention on me and- oh, oh. This feels familiar to him, it feels entirely new to him. He’s compelled immediately, obsessed immediately, needs to have more, know more immediately and he does not learn a single lesson. He’s very aware of but pays no heed to the possibility that he’ll be tossed around and dismissed again, admits he chases things he can’t have. But then again, what better way to set fireworks exploding inside your brain huh.

the brainworms have won

@endochikaweek day 1: devotion / god / worship / mythology au

Suo- I will start opening myself up and not be a total shithead thanks to Sakura

Hiragi- I will make an effort to reconnect with my old friend thanks to Sakura

Togame- I will stop being a bully and help the sun start shining again thanks to Sakura

Sugishita- I will admit other people are worth my time and effort and let them in thanks to Sakura

Momijikawa- I will learn to accept the community's help and not be on my own anymore thanks to Sakura

Wind Breaker | Ep25 | The hell am I supposed to drink from this?!

Bonus:

In my defense, I was left unsupervised.