ना जाने वो क्यूँ चुप था

मेरी आखों में तुम्हारा चेहरा घर बना चुका है

tired of writing about the insufferable sufferings

eat me alive tonight/ eat away my pain/ my shame/ anything that screams that i was here/ swallow away the air i breathe/ gently maybe/ choke me to death/ im running/ my legs dont know how to walk slowly/ running away before you can tell me youre gonna leave/ a coward/ a miser in feelings/ wring my heart away/ im ready to surrender/ doors to my house are open wide/ come inside/ steal away that isn't yours/ that was once mine/ not anymore/ this is my note/ like a dream/ watch me pass you by/ like a memory/ let me fade away slowly/ eat away my thoughts/ if you can/ eat away my infatuations/ hear me out for a minute/ ask the big start/ end is near/ sharpen your nails/ how to fight loneliness/ how to end it without ending it/ how to fly away like a migratory bird/ i need answers to my questions before it's too late/ for me/ it's been too long/ tell me if youre gonna miss the parts of me i never showed/ tell me in hush voices/ how youre gonna erase me/ i want to/ bleed on the bed i was born/ in the same room let me tie my head to the ceiling/ this is a lil bitter/ im sorry but they are not coming back for you/ knives are out/ one on my throat/ staring right into my eyes/ do you see/ fear or something bigger/ like a want that lingers/ my fingertips are leaving the marks behind/ hush me down to my room/ slowly lay me down/ tonight is the night/ tomorrow is not coming around/ paint on the floor is spilled over/ paint on the walls all dried up/ a liar/ i am/ i want to be but i cant/ i wouldve been but i wont/ everybody is gonna go sometime

कुछ अजीब सा एहसास है, जिंदगी अधूरी सी

listening to deftones and contemplating death