chica, ¿qué dices?

After today’s episode—and the seemingly discordant way some of us have viewed Fina’s behavior—I come back to this scene. A highly emotional scene that takes place after Marta finds out that Fina lied about having broken up with Bianca before she left Argentina. They’re both extremely vulnerable here, but what I see more than anything is Fina’s immediate jump to self blame, to call herself “una miserable.” And I wonder if her new defensive posture—her armor—comes from the deep wound she hasn’t wanted to talk about (except, to a certain degree, with Digna). Marta hears Buenos Aires and she thinks about this new woman, this new life, this new posture Fina has taken on. But Fina is still thinking of the horrible situation she was in, a situation barely alluded to with Marta. And Marta knows it was hard for Fina to leave, but Fina still has the exact degree of the horrors she faced tucked deep inside of herself. She has come back defensive, combative, slightly aloof. We see her old self in glimpses, sometimes entire scenes, but when she is confronted with the changes that have taken place within herself she frames them in terms of independence, self-possession, professional aspirations. Not: deep deep trauma. So when I say that Fina isn’t displaying the type of empathy she used to, this isn’t a knock on her (and it isn’t a way of excusing Marta’s tendency for self-absorption), but it’s to say: hey, yes, this person is different and things are weird, there’s something more here and I can’t wait to find out more.

Love women who love the brine of life...Pickles, Olives, pickled jalapeños, sun-dried tomatoes, pickled ginger, pepperoncini, kimchi, pickled red onions

is this blog stupid? yes. but which one of us is following it?

Like I know I’d feels awkward to write but when I’m reading a fic I don’t notice if an author is using the characters names too many times too close together. That’s their name! on the other hand if I ever have to read “the blond” I’m closing the tab. The only time it’s ever acceptable to use epithets like that is when the characters don’t know each others names yet