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my most niche motivation is the visual difference between jumps of underweight vs healthy weight figure skaters and i will not elaborate

me cause losing these 16kg made no difference and i still am miserable and fat

how noticing a pb jar during a binge episode feels

bitches who make those 1k calories per slice cakes for their friends and family are fucking crazy, i'd binge on it one second after it's out of the oven and never attempt to be a shitty friend again, those are some levels of self control i can only yearn for

my system seeing 5k calorie worth of food in ten minutes after 10 days of fasting

every day i wake up, i think a new organ of mine collapsed

Holy thinspø

i yearn for a relationship in which he enables my ed but i'm too self aware to get into one

i really hate the fact that 'ana aesthetic' is about purity, minimalism and cleaness. it always reminds me that, in the end, it's the patriarchy behind us. i am not pure, i am rotting alive. no, i don't want to be 'clean'. no, i don't want to be 'dainty'. i want to be thin and obnoxious. i want to be thin and messy. i want to be thin but still be myself ;(

how it feels to have ana when you want to neither smoke nor do molly