bliep

I wish I was a great writer, I wish my handwriting wasn’t so bad so I could just write this on a notepad. I’m neither of those things. I feel very empty and everything I do today feels like wasted time. I want to do something useful but the thought of me going out scares me. I may not always show that I’m scared like that, I probably never show it. But I rather just be safe inside, in my own room away from any awkward conversations. What am I afraid of? I don’t even know. It’s the thought of these awkward moments that make me afraid but when I experience these moments I’ll always handle them well and feel relieved afterwards. Yet here I am in my own room, watching series and surfing the web thinking about what my day could’ve been. 

thank you, people that always have been nice to me even when most weren't. I don't know if you know the power of the words "how are you?". those words seem so easy to say yet most people don't. the answer to that question is not important. it's showing that you care that makes this question so important. it will always leave a smile on my face