bledá holka🌙

Oslo, Tons of Rock

when i think about this year i am so surprised, disappointed and have never felt like now before.

I crossed my boundaries so many times, dont wanna say im proud of myself but probably it had to happen.

Im proud of myself i ended my toxic relationship even if it hadn’t been visible for me before.

I am not so proud of myself i fell in love so deeply and strongly like never before in my life. I think im in love for the first time. The worst is that so many signs from God/Universe show me „this is him! Be patient but trust the process”. But i fucking cant.

I am surprised that magic came to my life and everything in tarot reading happened.

I am disappointed i have to suffer from my mental illness and was diagnosed with BPD (wish my future partner luck)

I am angry i failed so many things due of my mental health.

I am happy because i traveled nearly whole europe and was 3 times in Finland.

I am happy i start my new life there.

I feel so exhausted because of people who left me this year . I would love to say them „fvck you” but im searching for guilt in me.

I am so thankful he came into my life, even if it hurts.

I am so pissed off when i think about xenophobia i experienced in Brno. And i hope that karma is real.

no one supposed i will leave my ex becasue i was so obedient and intimidated

and no one supposed i will cut off 40 cm of my hair.

This song reminds me of meeting my special person this year.

That’s absolutely funny how randomly they went into my life and how much in love im am with them right now. «он же не знал кто я, я уже знала кто он»

This year was an explosion of many things. Ending my relationship after more than 7 years, travelling, touring with Megadeth, meeting one SP and falling in love deeply and strongly, 2 s* attempts, 3 new tattoos, living abroad, diagnosis of bipolar disorder, learning 8th language, plans for spending life in Finland…

One year ago i had no awareness about what will happen next year.

Now I have no clue about the future.