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I ran into my ex-friend (the one who took me to my first Knicks game) and her posse and they completely ignored me! Which is shocking and expected at the same time. Or more like hurtful? Like I have so many pictures of us together and all 4 of you are not gonna even glance or make eye contact ! But life is continuing continuing

In a weird way I’m glad I got to see them at all and that they’re doing well and are looking pretty. I wonder if they talk about me, talk shit about me. I’m in disbelief that they’re all still hanging out and going strong. I thought for sure they’d have fallings out too but maybe I specifically rubbed her the wrong way or we got too close too fast, idk.

But I am grateful tbh. They drink and eat out so often. They’re always talking abt housewives or pop culture shit I could not care less about. They’re in the orbit of the downtown nyc people who I feel like are all hollow simulacrums of a Pinterest board.

But I do miss laughing with them, joking around with them, bitching with them, and going on trips and having fun hangs. They put me on to a lot of stuff and I appreciate that.

But also I wake up early and work out for hours, I’m competitive with sports, I like stuff they’d talk shit about (like bugs and keeping roaches). Also NONE of them are dykes !!!

Life can be so awesome !!! Never kill yourself !!!

I went to Brighton today and swam and met up with some friends and swam with them <3 then booked it home to shower and change, and go see the game with some other friends at Central Park which ended up surprisingly not so chaotic despite the attendance.