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“Take time to be still and breathe” 

The quote above is a daily reminder for myself when I turn to my right while doing work. It has been a long and tedious year if I must say. I realized I have been repeating the same thing about this year to almost everyone but one thing I failed to repeat is that, I also have had one of the most thrilling, exciting and eye opening year. I’ve done so many things that I always wanted to try but never get to try (not entirely sure if it was due to the break up) I met new friends and realized more about myself. I definitely know that I treasure my comfort so much that I don’t want anyone disrupting that feeling. 

Iris questioned me one day “What makes you the most happy?” 

I literally took 3 to 4 days to really answer that because I had no clue. I wanted to answer that gym & ultimate makes me happy but who am I kidding. The pain and sweat does make me feel more accomplished but definitely not happier. My mind do drift away and I do live in the present when I play ultimate but I know I have always been trying to suppress my emotions especially when people don’t want to be cooperative. But one fine day while crossing the over-head bridge near my house, I realized that what make me most happy is when I feel at ease, I feel at peace with myself. It is when I don’t feel conflicted, anxious or a mess. This is also the day I realized that this feeling is so precious that I do not want anyone to take it away from me.