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me: my meds have finally started evening out my moods so im not losing my mind anymore! that means i can actually write! the fever i’ve been mostly ignoring for like three days:

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@sethleann said: happy birthday dima! flayn wishes you a good name day and will gladly give a celebratory hug, she’s overjoyed to see him make it through another year
a soft smile crosses your face and color rises on your cheeks as you return her hug . it has been quite some time since the last time somebody hugged you , truly , and you had expected to be --- well , slightly uncomfortable , if you're honest with yourself . but this is good . this is nice --- you have survived , and you will continue surviving , if only for times like these . it may take a while for you to start living for yourself , but until then --- you don't think it harmful to continue on until that point for the sake of others , for the sake of those who are happy you are still here . for the sake of small rays of light and happiness . yes , you think that sounds just wonderful . you glance down at her , smile widening , even if it is slight .
❝ thank you , flayn . i . . . appreciate it . ❞
lucked out and i am p much no longer cwazy and it’s!! dimitris bday!! hell yeah
will likely b properly here next week !
tea time with dimitri

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@incoronare said: ‘ find peace and build a home out of it ’
PEACE . he's not even sure what that means anymore . it feels like he's been fighting his entire life , striving forward , to one thing --- revenge . will that be his peace ? when he's gotten vengeance , gotten justice for the dead , will he finally be able to rest ? or will he be forced onward to the next cause worth fighting for , worth dying for ? that's assuming , of course , that he survives this campaign . ( he hopes he will , for his people's sakes , for his friends' sakes , and --- marginally --- for his own sake . ) ( he hopes he will , but he can't be sure , because he feels that edelgard is too steadfast to stand down . ) ( he told her , once , that he didn't want to fight her . so much has changed since then . right ? ) he can't tell for sure what peace feels like , but he likes the idea of it . likes the idea of home , too ; though it is something he's not had for many years , the word still evokes a kind of warmth in his heart . and a kind of longing , too --- for times that might have been , for times that should have been .
❝ i want to . ❞ his words are soft , as if speaking any louder would shatter the sky and ruin any chance he may have . ❝ but i have to keep going . i am not able to stop --- i should not stop , not until i have stopped edelgard , and not until i have made amends for my own actions . ❞ there's a reason , he thinks , that his cloak is so heavy atop his shoulders --- the weight is comforting , familiar , so much like the weight of the world that has rested there for longer than he can remember . ( did someone else place it there , or was it a job he took up himself ? does it matter , anymore ? ) a deep , weary sigh . ❝ maybe some day i will be able to , but until then --- ❞ he glances at her . coaxes a smile out of himself . ( it doesn't feel right ; feels heavy and awkward , like he doesn't quite know how , but there's not much to be done about that . ) ❝ until then , thank you for your kindness . ❞
modern dimitri went off his meds exactly once because he thought that since he was doing better that meant he didn’t need them anymore. it took him like, a week to realize that Oh No Actually He Sure Did Definitely Still Need Them so he. got back on his meds. he hated who he was during the time he was off them so much that he makes sure that he doesn’t have to go through that (or put other people through that) again
@sethleann said: ‘ you are an ocean that will perhaps never stop crashing ’ u_u
you are quiet a moment , eyelids fluttering closed as you take in her words . though you have never been to the ocean for any reason other than war , you know deep in your heart that she is correct . you will never be still , never be silent , never be at peace , not entirely . you've not rested in so long ; you're not sure you know how anymore , haunted as you are by the past . ( your deeds as loud as the deaths of those you love . ) you take a breath . and again .
you open your eyes , look down at her . ❝ perhaps . ❞ you will never be rid of your ghosts , never be rid of the trauma you have accumulated over far too few years for the amount of hurt you feel . it will continue to rise and to fall and to throw you against the jagged rocks of your memory ; it will tear open old wounds and give you fresh ones . and just when you think you have begun healing for good , when you think perhaps your sea of torment has begun to calm , will never bother you again , lightning will flash and you will once again be pulled under , gasping for breath , desperate for a brief moment's respite .
you know this has been the way of things , but oh how you so desperately want it to be different . you will always be turbulent , true , but you think perhaps it doesn't have to be the way it has always been . already , you know that there are tell-tale signs of which waves will toss you mercilessly against the rocks until you are screaming and crying at the heavens --- and which will simply set you back , pull you away from shore and disorient you . another breath . it comes easier now .
❝ but perhaps i can make my peace with that . it may not be enjoyable , most of the time , but it is at the very least reliable . i have gotten used to it , as well , and can usually manage it in my own way . it is lonely , sometimes , but . . . ❞ a beat of silence . your lips upturn , slightly , of their own volition . ( a smile that was not forced there , that you did not drag from the depths of yourself and plaster on your face for the comfort of others . ) your gaze turns away once more . it is easier to say such things if you are not making eye contact . ❝ perhaps there exists someone , somewhere , who would not mind time spent with an ever-crashing ocean . ❞

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fomorias:
he’s mostly kept to himself for the better half of this war since byleth’s — and subsequently dimitri’s — return from apparent death. ( save for his incessant pacing on the floor about rhea’s whereabouts but that’s neither here nor there. ) and what he’s seen of dimitri is . . . concerning. he seems— BETTER would be a gross exaggeration, but improved from how he was at the start of this joint campaign MAYBE.
❝ dimitri, a moment, please? if you are not preoccupied. ❞
it's easier , these days , to ground himself when his mind starts racing and making connections he doesn't know for sure are actually there , when he sees and hears things that nobody else can . but easier doesn't mean that he's perfected it . there are still nights he is kept awake by the wailing , still moments he has to grip his own arm to remind himself where he is . to remind himself who he is . but he tries to hide it , tries not to let the others see --- because he doesn't know that he could stand the looks that they give him . ( of pity , of fear , of disgust . he hates it . and yet , does he not deserve it wholeheartedly ? ) so he can't wholly say that he is not preoccupied when seteth asks --- but he is at least present , which is all he can truly hope for most days . ❝ yes , of course , seteth . what is it you needed ? ❞
frustrating that i haven’t quite figured out how to make dima jewish yet since he’s Blue and we all know that’s a jewish color u_u
starters / prompts taken from f. d. soul’s work , between you and these bones . feel free to change pronouns / tenses as necessary .
‘ the problem is you keep trying to use your eyes ’
‘ how i soften when you pull me against you ’
‘ you are teaching me to love ’
‘ i will pretend that i have not already heard the question in your eyes ’
‘ you perhaps will become my swan song ’
‘ it is a very human thing to love ’
‘ you are my good days ’
‘ i have been loved dearly ’
‘ i promise you will not always be this war ’
‘ thank god for the stubbornness of organs ’
‘ it takes me seven days to stop being in love with you ’
‘ there will always be another day ’
‘ there will always be another mercy ’
‘ perhaps i will take up dancing again ’
‘ what a pretty little disaster you will be ’
‘ i am terrified for you ’
‘ i will fold inside of myself ’
‘ today i am thankful ’
‘ i didn’t want to sleep because i didn’t want to wake ’
‘ come and get me ’
‘ i tell myself i do not need you ’
‘ i think i broke again last night ’
‘ i’m just trying to connect with you ’
‘ you are an ocean that will perhaps never stop crashing ’
‘ burn the house down in search of yourself ’
‘ don’t you dare ever stop looking ’
‘ i struggle not to feel guilty ’
‘ you are a wild , unkempt thing ’
‘ sometimes it is a very sad thing to be human and longing ’
‘ find that you are made of russian nesting dolls ’
‘ the trees are always kindest with spring comes ’
‘ teach yourself the hymns again ’
‘ he is every amen i have ever laid down on lips ’
‘ this life is an altar ’
‘ i am sorry i do not have more time ’
‘ there is a mountain in me ’
‘ by the morning i am a triumph ’
‘ there are words playing hooky in the back of your throat ’
‘ today is by far the most beautiful creature i have ever come across ’
‘ there are many things that will fit beneath your skin ’
‘ forgiveness does not take up much room ’
‘ some days you will breathe and it will be enough ’
‘ you do not have to hold it quite so tightly ’
‘ there is a prayer in me , still ’
‘ you scare me a little ’
‘ you can be a good thing and not a whole thing ’
‘ there are flowers in my chest again ’
‘ the rain comes and sounds like you ’
‘ i cannot tell you why i still trust god ’
‘ find peace and build a home out of it ’
‘ there is never an end ’
Verdant wind, crimson flower, silver snow, azure moon.
enlightenedher:
funny how such a brilliant battle tactician seems to falter speaking to a friend . she watches him and realizes her error , sighing at herself , byleth breaks any eye contact . nonetheless , she bears a weaker smile , one more bore in a much needed relief . it still jars her , all of this . there’s no way she could even begin to understand what the time of her absence has been , especially for the prince before her . ❝ ————— i – yes . ❞ the professor’s stammering too , pursing her lips and nodding . and there goes the conversation . why is she so silent ? she’s got so many questions , so much to catch up on . ❝ where were you headed ? maybe i can accompany you , if you don’t mind . ❞
he's thankful for her tact , for the change in subject . he knows that as hard as the last five years have been for him ( ghosts , always ghosts , whispering and reaching and weeping ) he knows that they must have been difficult for her as well . or , well --- judging from her unchanging face , he's not entirely sure they existed at all . she seems to have been taken from the moment she disappeared and placed ( none so gently ) into present day . that must have been jarring , to see all her former students , now grown and battle scarred . he nods and gestures forward . ❝ oh , i was simply headed to the cemetery . i would not be opposed to you coming with me , if you don't mind the grim destination . ❞

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dimitri tries very hard to make himself seem... less intimidating than he might otherwise seem. he’s well aware that his appearance and demeanor can seem frightening to others, especially if one takes the last five years into account. now that he is working on healing and on taking better care of his mental health, he wants those with whom he surrounds himself to feel comfortable being around him. this leads him to stoop a little (not much, but a bit) and to speak a bit softer than is his natural inclination.