Skinnylove

Feeling so weak again.

35095) Hello relapse my old friend. Not. I have no idea how I used to maintain this disease without collapsing all over the place because I feel like absolute garbage and can barely even stand up long enough to go to the bathroom after just a short time giving into behaviors. I used to work and go to school and somehow socialize like this. I better kick my ass back into healthier choices right now. I don’t like this.

35100) How come I’m not enough for anyone?

17111) Don't you ever ask why, in the English class, I always know how to write "weight," (that everyone always write wrong) or why I knew what "fast" meant? Don't you ever ask why I downloaded an app to count calories? Don't you ever ask why I don't always have dinner?

17051) I think my mum has an eating disorder. I'm jealous because that is my thing. I'm awful.

they really do mean everyone

16266) I had a dream about my brother telling me how much weight I've gained and how fat I am now. I'm not even safe in my sleep anymore.

15890) My biggest regret was letting people know about my ED. So I faked recovery to once again make it a secret. Not one soul knows now.

14896) By my weight and appearance, you probably wouldn't believe me if I told you I have an ED.

when did i get this fat

13621) One of my close friends has recently been saying how fat she is and how she wants a thigh gap and a flat stomach like she used to have. She tells me things like, "I skipped X and Y today, so I'm doing good with losing weight so far." I'm scared, I don't want her to end up permanently fucked up like I am.

B&w depression blog *trigger warning*

9949) Whenever someone offers me anything to eat, I feel like crying because I feel like that means that I look like someone who eats constantly.