hiatus

So I made a new blog and I want to share it here but I’m also paranoid of having someone I don’t want to find out about it and it’s giving me anxiety. Oh well my brain is shit and I hope it dies in two years, I can’t bear it any longer.

Bb r u ok?

I’m being stupid that’s all. I hate this blog and I want to delete but I have like 20.000 reblogs and shit so I can’t delete it even though I want to

U can’t delete because of reblogs?

Yes… No? I have a fucking stupid history here. All I made here was for fucking someone I haven’t seen in a year and I wanna cry because this stupid blog has everything I hold dear about poems and shit I dedicated to that person so that’s why I don’t want to delete it but at the same time I want everything gone

Maybe just don’t delete but start a new blog? That way u can come back here but u don’t have to see it every day

Best part is, you can also go through your archives if need be to get all the poems-related things you like, or use the tags to transfer them over via reblog.

I actually did but my stupid anxiety won't shut up about this place. I feel so anxious and frustrated about this stupid blog and sometimes I get paranoid of my ex friends finding this blog. I want my brain to shut up, I just hate it because I need to concentrate for my finals but my fucking mind is all about "delete this, delete this, delete this, no one wants this blog to be around anymore, delete this now". It's stressing me so much, my brain is so fucking mean to me.

So I made a new blog and I want to share it here but I’m also paranoid of having someone I don’t want to find out about it and it’s giving me anxiety. Oh well my brain is shit and I hope it dies in two years, I can’t bear it any longer.

Bb r u ok?

I’m being stupid that’s all. I hate this blog and I want to delete but I have like 20.000 reblogs and shit so I can’t delete it even though I want to

U can’t delete because of reblogs?

Yes… No? I have a fucking stupid history here. All I made here was for fucking someone I haven’t seen in a year and I wanna cry because this stupid blog has everything I hold dear about poems and shit I dedicated to that person so that’s why I don’t want to delete it but at the same time I want everything gone

Maybe just don’t delete but start a new blog? That way u can come back here but u don’t have to see it every day

I did, kind of... I dunno, I just feel weird about this blog. I know it's my anxiety and I won't stop thinking about this and feeling like shit until I do something about it but I feel so conflicted. I just want my brain to shut up for a second about this stupid place and let me study for finals, all I do is feel paranoid and I can't focus properly on the things I'm doing.

So I made a new blog and I want to share it here but I’m also paranoid of having someone I don’t want to find out about it and it’s giving me anxiety. Oh well my brain is shit and I hope it dies in two years, I can’t bear it any longer.

Bb r u ok?

I’m being stupid that’s all. I hate this blog and I want to delete but I have like 20.000 reblogs and shit so I can’t delete it even though I want to

U can’t delete because of reblogs?

Yes... No? I have a fucking stupid history here. All I made here was for fucking someone I haven't seen in a year and I wanna cry because this stupid blog has everything I hold dear about poems and shit I dedicated to that person so that's why I don't want to delete it but at the same time I want everything gone

So I made a new blog and I want to share it here but I’m also paranoid of having someone I don’t want to find out about it and it’s giving me anxiety. Oh well my brain is shit and I hope it dies in two years, I can’t bear it any longer.

Bb r u ok?

I'm being stupid that's all. I hate this blog and I want to delete but I have like 20.000 reblogs and shit so I can't delete it even though I want to

I feel so worthless and stupid and I want to delete everything including this blog and get a new phone number but I have so much history with this blog. I feel so stupid and I wanna cry why my brain is doing this to me I wanna run away and never get back

I love u ;-;

you’re a good person

thank you sweetheart, you too are a good person, i’m really sorry for not replying before. my mental health is a mess right now, i hope you are okay and happy, if you need anything i promise i’ll be here.

I hope I’m not being pushy but Could you please reblog my free book chapter and tell me your honest opinion in the reblog? You don’t have to donate If you can’t or don’t want to. Just tell your followers to check out my book, and if they can, please donate. The link to the free chapter is HERE

Hey I'm so sorry I took me a long time, my blog is tiny and pretty ignored but sure I will.

I feel so worthless and stupid and I want to delete everything including this blog and get a new phone number but I have so much history with this blog. I feel so stupid and I wanna cry why my brain is doing this to me I wanna run away and never get back

I love u ;-;

you’re a good person

thank you sweetheart, you too are a good person, i’m really sorry for not replying before. my mental health is a mess right now, i hope you are okay and happy, if you need anything i promise i’ll be here.

I feel so worthless and stupid and I want to delete everything including this blog and get a new phone number but I have so much history with this blog. I feel so stupid and I wanna cry why my brain is doing this to me I wanna run away and never get back

you’re not worthless, and you’ll never be worthless. even if you may have said some stupid things, we learn and move on and change. hell, i said stupid things a few hours ago and my viewpoint has changed. you’re not the worst thing ever, not at all. people definitely care about you, and there are some things you probably can’t miss! ^-^

I feel so worthless and stupid and I want to delete everything including this blog and get a new phone number but I have so much history with this blog. I feel so stupid and I wanna cry why my brain is doing this to me I wanna run away and never get back

I love u ;-;

hey eggy, i love you too

Mood

It was so awkward when I was walking home because I walked past a nursing home and like….I’m not old so….yea

It was so awkward when I was walking home because I walked past a river and like….I’m not a fish so….yea

It was so awkward when I was walking home because I walked past a car dealership and like….I’m not an automobile so….yea

It was so awkward when I was walking home because I was walking over the sewer the whole time and like….I’m not a piece of shit….yea

It was so awkward when I was walking home because I walked past an atheist and like…I’m a church so… yea

wait what

Maybe people should focus more on treating real people with respect rather than ones that only exist on paper