journal fagotry epxloded

the relationship status is getting a bit dire bc why am i lusting after men 2-3x my age. and every anime sexyman (except from the yuri on ice cast). im like an incel except i talk to and don't hate women. and im not cishet or male

was anybody gonna tell me that there's only 12 episodes of yuri on ice or was i supposed to just find out a decade after it was popular myself

i thought i was normal about music and then i spoke to my friends from school and they didn't know what midwest emo or math rock or bossa nova were. chat do i need to touch grass

oh and my other dream about having huge whiteheads/cysts? that were big enough to direct my nose off centre and sprayed pus at the slightest touch. that was actually horrible. my cheeks were really full and floppy too

i had a dream where the young veins and black country new road and a bunch of other indie bands (probably english teacher, idk who else) were teaming up to protest some music industry thing. ryan ross looked absolutely emaciated for some reason, like he'd been on the ozempic train

just remembered i am trans which made me excited about my life in a way i have not been in almost a year

i woke up thinkinf about hair root sheaths. was already planning to order other stuff so added nac to the order, god please please please let this fix me

joe's story sounds weird if nothing else