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Starker High School AU, Pt.1 (Pt.2, Pt.3)

tw: enemies-to-lovers, swearing, mentions of fighting

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Peter’s day started like most others. 

The nearby screech of his alarm startles him into the waking world. Without opening his eyes, he fumbles against his bedside table to grab his phone, smacking himself in the face in his haste to silence it.

It’s always a Herculean effort to get up before the sun does, and today is no different. Squinting against the grey morning light, Peter contemplates simply closing his eyes and going back to sleep. The thought is tempting, the pull of sleep still in his limbs. 

Instead, he resigns himself to the day and slips out of bed, reaching for his glasses and propping them on his face.

Through finger-smudged lenses his phone say’s five-thirty-four, which in itself is an affront, but he’s comforted that it’s a Friday and respite isn’t far off. This weekend will be spent sleeping, playing video games and eating cinnamon poptarts until he succumbs to a blissful food coma.

He can’t freakin’ wait. 

Hearing his aunt rouse the room over, Peter gathers his clothes and hurries to the shower. The November chill bites as his bare feet touch the floor and he shivers, cursing the lack of heating in his apartment. It’s positively freezing. 

The hot water is nice while he showers, but it’s much worse when he gets out, still wet as he tiptoes back to his bedroom. Fruitlessly, he bangs the old iron radiator in the hall with his fist as he passes it, because it does little more than encourage a groan from the ancient equipment.

Back in his bedroom, Peter hums as slips on his sweats and sneakers and readies himself for the day against the tune of an awakening neighborhood, spraying himself with probably too much deodorant in the process. 

Finished, Peter puts his glasses back on and in the window he inspects his reflection. He smiles. 

It’s Friday.

It’s gonna be a great day.

don’t go starting shit you can’t finish and act like the white person savior fucking messiah or whatever just to claim you’re too busy to deliver on something you decided to pretend to dedicate any sort of care or time into. (say it with me now!! ✨performative activism✨)

it’s really disgusting to see how many of you treated this as a “get out of jail” free card and have decided to use BLM to: basically draw attention to yourself and your blog with false promises of movement related posts/efforts, talk over the literal people of color (even though in starker there’s like 5 of us), or literally just sit here and write even MORE white savior fics.

fun fact but making the only black character in your fic (that you tossed in there for what? other than a cheap diversity card?) speak in INTENSE AAVE when, canonically, he doesn’t fucking speak that way is really insulting considering a majority of white people consider an overuse of AAVE to equate to a lack of education, a lower socioeconomic status, or to put it in words you have probably used to describe us— “ghetto.”

the best and most covert racism is in the little discords, y’all think i don’t see you.

the colorist notions and jokes, the degrading and literal ERASURE of the few characters of color in the mcu is so astounding.

but then you go on your little blog and your blue bird app and make sure everyone knows you tweet #blacklivesmatter every few days!! you do!! you’re not racist or hold any kind of microaggressions at all, nope no ma’am!!

i held a survey about what characters some of you found desirable and a good majority of the THIRTY FIVE PEOPLE who filled it out decided to write me paragraphs explaining that they aren’t racist they just think black and darkskinned people aren’t as attractive!! they aren’t racist, the black people just aren’t interesting!! they aren’t racist, black panther just wasn’t that good!! (some bullshit in and of itself as if black panther isn’t the most solid mcu film, but i digress)

please take this as a call out post from me honestly, i’m sick and tired of these blogs with huge platforms doing absolutely nothing with it, because what you get is white ignorance? laziness? or just flat out taking advantage of a critical cause?

use your privilege for fucks sake!

i get it’s not your “aesthetic” or “not fandom oriented”, so it doesn’t appeal to your audience or even you, but reread that and understand how ignorant it sounds.

you’ll take having some nice color palettes over advocating for the value of a life.

take a step back and recognize your actions and then come back, because i’m done. and i sure as hell know jamie is also done with the bullshit.

recognize your racism and the erasure of poc in your favorite media and in your own fanwork.

why is this a discussion that is needed to have?

i am sick and i am tired.

AA WHO ARE U BUT ALSO THANK U LMAOWNDJ