ᗷIᑎᑕᕼI ᗪᗩ ᐯIᑎᑕI

I only write for AFAB. Skin tone and body type will not be specified.

The hashtag #binchithinks are drabbles, thoughts, and fics I like.

I don’t use a TW system, but my fics tend not to include common triggers (e.g SH, SA, etc,.).

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The late-night news droned on in the background as you dozed off on your couch; you barely registered the anchor’s urgent tone in your half-sleep state. "...still searching for convicted three-time murderer and juvenile offender Courtland Gentry, considered dangerous and likely armed." You cracked one eye open: an image of a broad man clad in a blue jumpsuit appeared in the top right of the screen. He had down-turned blue eyes— one swollen shut with a bruise from his apparently violent arrest the previous year— and a weathered face that looked neither smug nor regretful. You let your eyes shut again as the solemn reporter continued. "Gentry broke free during a transfer earlier today. If you see him, do not approach; contact police immediately. On to weather, we can expect sunshine starting from Wednesday...”

You must have drifted off somewhere between the weather and the next story, the 2 a.m. TV's glow flickering across your sleeping face. It couldn't have been twenty minutes later when a scrape coming from the kitchen woke you; your eyes flew open and you sat up with a jolt. You lived alone, and could not imagine what kind of an animal could have slid open your kitchen window. As you stared wide-eyed over the back of the sofa, knuckles gripping the fabric in disbelief, you watched in horror as a figure pulled himself hastily through the frame. He pulled himself to his feet, clutching his side, and you locked eyes: prison-cropped hair and stubbly, it was the man from the TV. 'Convicted three-time murderer' Courtland Gentry looked as surprised to see you as you were him. Before you could draw breath to scream, he was crossing the room in a panic; a large, calloused hand clamped over your mouth, the other pinning your shoulder back against the cushions firmly as he reached over the back of the sofa. Your muffled shout vibrated against his palm. “Listen to me," he whispered, voice low and calm like he was trying to sound as non-threatening as a fugitive could. "I’m not going to hurt you, but you need to be quiet." His face was inches from yours, sharp blue eyes staring down at you expectantly, a smear of blood along his jaw visible in the TV's blue glow. “Do you understand?”

You froze, trying to recall advice for what to do in such an event: all you could think was to cooperate and give him whatever he wanted to try and stay alive. As you nodded frantically, your gaze drifted to the dark stain spreading across the side of his shirt: fresh blood. He sighed in relief and removed his hand from your shoulder, placing it against his bleeding torso and wincing as he pressed down on what was an obviously grievous wound. "I need your help,” he nodded down to his side, grimacing. “Got shot on the way out. Don't think it's life-threatening, but I can’t keep moving like this. So," he continued, "bandages, first-aid kit... got any?" Again, you nodded frantically, eyes gesturing over to your bathroom. He turned his head and nodded once in silent understanding, then paused, hand still over your mouth. You could feel the tremor in his fingers as he spoke. “I just need somewhere to lay low a couple hours, then I’ll be gone.” His eyes searched yours, intense and surprisingly calm given the situation. “You have my word. Now, if I let go, are you going to scream?” He waited, watching you carefully with raised eyebrows.

Your pulse thundered in your ears. A dangerous convict was in your flat, bleeding on your furniture, and yet you found yourself shaking your head no and believing it. He looked like a man who had run out of options as you stared up at him. His blue eyes were sharp but exhausted, pain etching deep lines around them. After a long, terrifying second he carefully lifted his hand from your mouth, ready to clamp it back down if you screamed. You didn’t; the only sound was some midnight TV segment chuntering on in the background. “Good,” he murmured, voice rough with relief. “Thank you.” He eased back just enough to give you space to sit up. “I— I have a first aid kit,” you whispered, scared to speak too loudly, "but it's in the bathroom." Your hands trembled as you pointed behind him to the bathroom. Courtland watched you carefully, like an uneasy dog. "Alright. I can work with that."

Shell-shocked and in a daze, you returned clumsily to the living-room with the first-aid kit. Courtland had lowered himself onto the couch and turned on a small lamp next to the sofa, wincing as he peeled his shirt up and off. The sight of his bare torso as you approached from behind— lean muscle, old scars— made your stomach twist; nonetheless, you kneeled in front of him, placing the box on the table and carefully prying the latch open. You looked up at him for permission to move closer, and, when he nodded, you slowly crept forward, squinting at his abdomen; up close, the gash was ugly and deep, much worse than the odd graze you had ever treated. You wondered whether this twenty-year-old, dusty, household first-aid kit would be up to fixing a bullet-wound, but Courtland interrupted your spiralling doubts. "This isn't my first rodeo," he gestured to his scar-addled torso. "If I could reach it, I would do this myself, but I can't, so I'm going to talk you through it, ok? Just need to do what I say." It was comical that he was trying to reassure you when he was the one sporting a bullet-wound. Your eyes darted between his and the bullet hole: this man was dying and you had nothing more than a girl-scout first aid kit to retrieve the bullet, sterilise and pack the wound. Still, you nodded, resigned to cooperating. "Okay. Clean the tweezers." You obeyed, trembling hands ripping open the plastic of the individually packed anti-septic wipe and shakily wiping down the tweezers. Courtland peered down at you as you worked. "Now pull bullet out." He said it like it was just another instruction in a recipe: you clenched your jaw and moved closer, tentatively placing one hand on his torso to peer into the wound. “I'm sorry,” you mumbled, an advance apology for the pain you were about to cause. He let out a humourless huff, gritting his teeth. “Just do it.”

And so you did: he squeezed eyes shut, save to look down a few times to direct you, and grit his jaw as you finally pried the bullet from the wound. Your stomach churned as you dropped the bloody metal onto the coffee table. "Good," Courtland affirmed. "Now we need to clean and pack it."

You cleaned the gash as gently as you could; he tensed under your hands, jaw clenched tight, but stayed perfectly still. A low groan escaped him when the antiseptic hit the raw flesh. “Easy… easy,” he breathed, eyes half-closed. One of his hands came to rest lightly on your shoulder— not restraining, just steadying himself. His palm was warm and rough. “You’re doing good."

The closeness was overwhelming. His scent— sweat, blood, and adrenaline— filled the small space between you with heat. Every time your fingers brushed his skin, you felt goosebumps rise.

After five minutes of silence, you found yourself a little bolder; you'd pulled a bullet from his side: you felt you were owed an explanation. “Why my place?” you prompted softly as you packed gauze into the hole. Courtland replied immediately, as though he were listing off attributes of a safehouse. You had an inkling he was not your average con. “Lights were off. Ground floor. Looked… safe.” His thumb brushed absently against your shoulder. “Didn’t expect anyone to be home, let alone someone like you—” he hissed suddenly as you hit a tender spot. “M'sorry," you muttered. "'Someone like me'?” He looked down at you, eyes intense through the discomfort. “Kind.” You didn’t answer. Instead you focused on taping the bandage securely, wrapping it around his lean waist. Your hands kept brushing the hard planes of his abdomen, and you tried to ignore the way your pulse jumped every time.

became obsessed w you the day his mother married your father and you ended up under the same roof.

he's 17 and you're 16 when your parents remarry, and he carries his 'curiosity' about you for years until he realises that he keeps dumping his girlfriends because none of them are enough like you. eventually comes to terms with the fact that he wants to fuck you silly.

he keeps a hidden sketchbook filled with drawings of you: some innocent, many not. He draws you sleeping, in the shower, changing... the more explicit ones he hides under his mattress for fear his mom will find it when cleaning his room

100% a panty stealer! At first it was just one pair, then it became a collection. He keeps them in a box under his bed and uses them to jerk off, involuntarily moaning your name quietly so no one hears. first time he does that he's so disgusted with himself he burns them, then regrets it because now he has to steal more. SIGH

He listens to you through the wall. The first time he hears you quietly moaning, or a quiet 'buzz' from your room, he thinks he's died and gone to heaven. It becomes a routine, lying in bed with his eyes closed waiting to hear the hum of your vibrator, then pressing his ear to the wall, cock in hand for as long as he can manage.

Can tell when you've not orgasmed in a while because a) he keeps a diary of the days you do masturbate based on what he hears and b) you're cranky after a week of not touching yourself. He winds you up extra on those days with the belief that you'll cum extra hard the next time you do. He's so considerate <3

sometimes purposefully knocks on your door when he hears you masturbating so that you have to tell him to 'HOLD ON I'M...GETTING CHANGED!' and answer the door all flustered while he smirks and you can't figure out why.

Takes the liberty of charging up your vibrator whilst you're at school or work so that you can BOTH get off that night!

He gets jeaaaaalous with a capital J when you date, or even talk to, guys. will go as far as to “accidentally” ruin your plans, delete messages confirming a date or time with a guy, or show up wherever you are with that bullshit big-brother act saying he doesn't like the look of your date. often manages to get your dad on board, claiming that the guy you're dating is a known trouble-maker; your dad will tell Henry to go and pick you up and bring you home, which he does with great pleasure, claiming he's just following orders.

lets you cry on his shoulder about bad dates, comforts you despite his throbbing dick at the sight of your wet, doe-like eyes.

"He's an asshole, Y/N. You deserve better. Stop going on dates with these fuckin' jerk offs and wait for someone to appreciate you for what you are."

I'm potentially envisioning a drunken/stoned kiss if you're home alone together for the weekend, which neither of you ever bring up again but he thinks about constantly

once again, he is just a massive panty sniffer and general clothing thief. He’ll jerk off with your used underwear, sports shorts, even a SOCK because he was so desperate, wrapped around his cock, imagining it’s you riding him. He cums so hard he has to bite his lip until it bleeds to stay quiet on these occasions.

watches you shower as often as he can, self-justifying it as an art study.

touchy in an innocent way that’s anything but: he'll “accidentally” walk in on you changing; he’ll brush his fingers against your chest when reaching for something; he'll play fight with you just to touch you; throw you over his shoulder when you're snappy...

You guys have a... close relationship: some call it bizarre, others call it downright incestuous. So what if you sleep in your big brother's bed after a guy broke your heart? it doesn't mean anything.

He’ll crawl into your bed while you’re sleeping and just watch you, sometimes touching himself right next to you. Once he came on your thigh and cleaned it up before you woke up.

He wants to corrupt you SO bad. You've never smoked a cigarette before? here, come out with your big brother Henry and try some. sit on his lap whilst he rolls a joint, even! He won't tell your dad if you don't tell his mom.

If you confided in him that you're a virgin, he would tease you relentlessly, whilst also fantasising about being your first. He gets off on the idea of you trusting him completely while he’s thinking the dirtiest thoughts imaginable.

Inevitably probably does offer himself up to be your first, just for practice with someone you trust! He is SO selfless <3

The ceiling fan spun lazily overhead, doing almost nothing against the thick, humid heat that pressed down on the bedroom like a weighted blanket from hell. The windows were swung open, but the night air outside was just as oppressive. You lay on top of the sheets in a tank top and shorts, already glistening with sweat. Ken, of course, was undeterred. You'd been rejecting his hugs all day because of the heat, and he had had just about enough.

He scooted closer on the mattress (wearing just his heart-patterned boxers), his blond hair slightly damp at the temples: when someone from Barbieland starts sweating, that's how you know it's hot. Still, his big, hopeful eyes locked onto you with puppy-like longing. “Babe...?” he asked softly. You knew immediately from his tone what he was about to ask. “Can we do even a little cuddling? I can be the big spoon, if you want? I’ve been practicing my form— look!” He turned onto his side and stiffly demonstrated his new 'technique', smiling up at you proudly as he did so. You turned your head toward him, giggling despite the discomfort. “Ken, you know I want to, but it’s just so hot. If we cuddle I’m going to actually dissolve into a puddle, and you’ll have to explain to everyone why you're dating a pile of Y/N soup, and it'll be a whole thing." You huffed and wiped some hair from your damp brow, exhausted even by talking. Ken’s face fell, earnest tragedy flashing across his features once again. He flipped onto his back with a theatrical sigh, one arm dramatically draped over his forehead. “But we always cuddle at bedtime,” he whined, staring at the ceiling with wide sad eyes. “I need the closeness, the connection, the… the 'Ken and Y/N forever' energy to fall asleep!” You patted his arm sympathetically, then returned to your spread eagle position, trying desperately to let the lukewarm air hit as much as your body as possible.

He was quiet for a beat; you could almost hear the pink, plastic cogs turning in his head. “Okay, how about this,” he said, rolling onto his side enthusiastically, propping his head on his hand. “What if we do cold spooning? I’ll go take a cold shower, and become a human ice pack. You won’t even notice the heat!” It was beyond endearing that he'd be willing to do that for you, but still: the idea of flesh-on-flesh right now sent a trickle of sweat down your spine. "I dunno Ken..." you began, "still sounds a bit suffocating." He furrowed his brows, then doubled down. "We could put one of those cooling gel packs that you got for my sprained ankle between us? Like a little, cold chaperone. A chilly third wheel, if you will!” He beamed at you. You shook your head.

Ken's suggestions became increasingly ridiculous, ending with a final suggestion of his climbing into the fridge every ten minutes of spooning. When you gently but firmly said no to all cooling contraptions (because even that sounded sticky and awful right now), Ken nodded solemnly and sighed, like a man accepting his tragic fate.

He rose from the circular bed, and disappeared into the bathroom for a minute. When he returned, his hands were carefully carrying two damp washcloths he’d run under cold water. He placed one across your forehead with great gentleness, and laid the other across his own chest like a tiny blanket. Droplets of cold water ran down his hard flank, and you both sighed in relief. “See? I’m adapting,” he announced proudly. “I’m being very independent. Look at me, not cuddling: I’m basically a zen master.”

He lasted about four minutes before he started scooting his foot over until just his ankle brushed yours— the tiniest possible point of contact. You shot him a look that said 'I see what you're doing'. He smiled innocently at you. You laughed softly and let him keep the ankle contact.

Eventually, he settled on his back, but reached out so his pinkie finger could hook with yours on the mattress between you. “This is good,” he said quietly, though his voice was still a little wistful. “I just like knowing you’re here. Even if we’re both turning into puddles… I’m your puddle, and you’re mine.” After a moment, he added with a small, cheeky grin, "but when it cools down, I’m getting full cuddle tax. With interest". "Of course," you giggled, giving his pinkie a squeeze. He curled contentedly into the bed, blankets thrown aside.

The Great Hall felt colder than usual this Monday morning, even with the enchanted ceiling showing a bright blue sky. You sat at the long House table, feigning conversation with your friends and refusing to look even an inch toward where Cedric sat. You were pleased to see he looked as miserable as you felt inside— pushing food around his plate and sending you pining looks that you ardently refused to reciprocate. Three days of your silence had clearly had an impact on him, though you would argue this was a mild punishment compared to what he had done.

It had started at the end-of-NEWTs party last Friday: you’d gone looking for him in the Common room, heart still racing with the excitement of finishing your first set of exams, only to round the corner and see a pretty Gryffindor girl— Matilda, you thought she was called— with her arms around your boyfriend's neck. You didn't stand there long enough to see what kind of kissing they were clearly enjoying so much, but the image burned behind your eyelids every time you tried to imagine an explanation, to see a way that they couldn't have been shoving their tongues down each others' throats: clearly, there wasn't one.

Now, when you passed him in corridors or classrooms, he looked different: dark circles under his warm grey eyes, hair slightly messier than usual, that easy golden-boy smile nowhere to be found— you even thought his Quidditch playing was worse. Every time he tried to approach you in the corridors, you’d simply walk past like he didn’t exist; notes left in your bag were left unopened, added to the fire as kindling; when he sat near you in the library, trying to catch your eye, you gathered your things and left without a word. You would not give him the satisfaction of an explanation for your silence— not that you'd expect he needed one; he was clearly a dickhead, but he was not stupid. It was killing you not to tell him how angry you were, but you simply would not satisfy his need to know why you were acting so off. He had been too busy kissing another girl to turn around and see your expression of distraught, and so you would be too busy with everything else to explain to him why you were giving him the cold shoulder.

On the morning of the fourth day of silence, a muggy Tuesday, you were packing up to leave Herbology with your friends when you felt the peculiar prickle of eyes watching you on the back of your neck. As you exited the greenhouses, you grimaced to find that Cedric was waiting just outside, Hufflepuff scarf was wrapped tightly around his neck, hands shoved deep in his pockets twitchily. “Y/N,” he stepped forward to block your path, voice low. “Can we talk?” You tried to step around him; he moved with you, his larger frame blocking yours with the precision of an excellent Quidditch player. You sighed. "This won't take a minute," you said to your friends, avoiding Cedric's gaze. They gave each other a look, shrugged, then disappeared down the cobbled path toward the Castle.

When they'd left, Cedric turned again to you, stepping even closer so as to mutter the words below hearing range of anyone else. “Just tell me what I did,” he whispered. “Tell me why you won’t even look at me. I’m losing my mind, here.” He laughed bitterly and ran a hand through his thick hair. Your jaw worked as you fought to keep yourself from cussing him out. You kept your eyes fixed on the castle in the distance as you spoke through gritted teeth. "You're not stupid, Diggory— you know what you did. The name Mathilda ring any bells?" Cedric paused, furrowed his brows, then straightened up. "Mathilda? You mean, Mathilda Matthews from Gryffindor?" You nodded, arms crossed over your chest impatiently. Cedric sighed, then raised his eyes to meet your harsh gaze. He looked as though he wanted to take your hand, but knew better than to try. “She tried to kiss me, Y/N. I pulled away the second it happened. I didn’t know you were there,” he said resolutely. “I didn't know you were there and... I just didn't want to stir the pot by telling you about it."

You paused, jaw clenching and unclenching as you considered. Your bottom lip wobbled. "Seriously, Cedric? I'm supposed to believe that I just happened to walk in for the one second it was happening?" "I don't know what else to tell you, Y/N." "How about the truth?" "It is the truth," Cedric hissed, before recoiling. "It's the truth," he repeated more calmly. You stared at him, face calm and bitter. "You can do better that than that, Diggory, I'm sure." You uncrossed your arms, and shoved your hands deep into your pockets to hide the trembling.

Cedric let out a shaky laugh, rubbing a hand over his face. "Alright." Then, right there in the middle of the path where students were passing by, he dropped to his knees, one by one. The movement was so bizarre, so uncharacteristic of the composed, graceful Cedric Diggory, that several people actually stopped and whispered among themselves. He looked up at you, hands limp at his sides. You were sure his knees must hurt, digging into the wet cobblestone, but his eyes were focused entirely on you as he spoke determinedly. "The truth is that I told her that I was in love with you— that I’ve been in love with you since first year and that I only recently stopped being stupid enough to actually ask you out. I told her that when I next saw you, I was planning on tell you that I loved you.” He sighed. "But then, obviously, this all happened..." You didn't know what to say: could this be true? Cedric carried on. “I should've told you as soon as it happened, I just... she seemed really sorry after I told her I wasn't interested. I think she'd had too much firewhiskey.” He rubbed the back of his neck, suddenly sheepish.

And suddenly, it made sense: Cedric was irritatingly compassionate toward other people, so much so that it wouldn't be out of character for Cedric to try and preserve Mathilda's dignity by not telling you about her transgression, even if she didn't deserve it. If it were you, you would've slapped her, but Cedric was kind— kind to a fault. As you considered his words, the silence between you stretched so tight it felt like it might snap; his eyes never left yours as he searched your expression. He stayed on his knees, looking up at you like you held his entire world in your hands. “I love you,” he whispered. “Do you believe me?"

The wind rustled through the trees overhead as you gulped, tucking some hair behind your ear that had come loose from the breeze. You swallowed hard, then stepped forward, stretching out a hand before you could stop yourself. “Of course I believe you,” you sighed, voice hoarse with emotion. He rose instantly, but didn’t let go of your hand. His eyes searched yours hopefully. “I thought you kissed her back,” you admitted. “I feel a bit stupid, now, actually." Cedric smiled and relaxed visibly. “I’m sorry. I should've just told you and saved us four days' torment," he laughed. You let out a shaky laugh and tugged him closer. He wrapped his arms around you so tightly it felt like he was trying to merge the two of you together. “I missed you,” you mumbled into his chest. “I missed you,” he breathed against your hair. A small, watery smile broke across your face as you pulled away; you admired his muddy trousers. “You’re still an idiot for kneeling in the mud.” “Worth it,” he murmured. He leaned down to kiss you, full of every unsaid word from the last four days.