Billy Got Blog!

Living in the world full of people, doing their routines 9-5 and stay on the safe zone all the time.

Safe zone, the place where people are stuck, once you're in there you'll stay there for the rest of your life.

Lies, they were told. Lies that will force people to get there and stop questioning them, mincing and ripping apart their minds piece by piece. Who's they you may ask? I'm not sure. There's someone or some group that are controlling people's minds to get inside there.  

I would love to go out, telling everyone that I have been in a forbidden relationship, I don't believe gods exist, religion is overrated, all humans are different but they're basically the same inside, everything that happens to us were caused by a chained reaction that might happen since as early as we got out of the womb of our mothers.  

But they won't like that.

Think different? No no no, think like the others do! JUST THINK LIKE HOW THE OTHERS THINK

AS THE MATTER OF FACT, KEEP IMAGINING ON WHAT THE OTHERS WOULD THINK IF YOU DO THIS, DO THAT. KEEP THINKING LIKE THAT AND DON'T STOP.

But I stopped. I wanted to get out. I don't want to follow the rules.

But if anyone noticed that I thought about that, they'll alienate me.

I hate the world we're living in, I have to think on what I'm about to say to other people so they won't call me names that I don't like.

Everyone's different? Don't make me laugh. Everyone's been thought differently on how to end up in the same place as others.  

This would be hard, I'm stuck here. Asking for help won't help at all either, because who would help me.

I was right. We are all controlled. And the master of this drama has kept their anonymity well hidden. Good for them, not for us.

What is going through on my head? Why am I typing this? Why do I even think about this? Who the hell am I to think like this? Where in the world do I find my ownself? When will this end? Should I just end it myself?

Help.

I’m crying, I’m broken. I’ve been fucked over many times. The mask that I’m wearing right now says otherwise. They say to wear it every time you’re not what you are. In other terms, hiding who I actually am.