Listening to See you later (ten years) by Jenna Raine.
Once again I thought of you. It's been a while since I've thought of you, I thought I was finally over you. It's fucking 5 am and I crying thinking about what would have been if time had been in our favor. If I had been ten years olders, or you ten years younger or atleast at similar positions in life.
What if I had met you before you met your wife, who you married a month after we met. Would you have fallen for me? Like I fell for you. What if the universe had worked towards everything being right for us.
This song doesn't make sense for us because there's no way I'll be seeing you later. It was goodbye when I saw you on my last day at work. But still just one line made me think of you.
I miss the days when I worked with you, but if I remember well I used to hope to get to work with you every single day. If I didn't, I used to be upset. I was so anxious all the time over just the possibility of bumping into you or hearing your voice.
Workplace crushes are to be ignored. I know that. But I can't help my feelings. I'm glad I don't work there anymore, I don't think I could have handled anymore of the anxiety related to you. It's just the 'what ifs' are killing me.








