Alex

y'know, it's kinda crazy that the statement "I wish the average person was happier." is political to some some people.

Born to be a calm and collected academic, forced to be an adhd and moodswing riddled wreck that literally can't read a book

Dad wearing shirt with the texas flag on it, standing next do my flag of the DDR

i'm such a fucking horrible human being, i only hurt all those around me. i'm an intolerable, pitiful human being. i do nothing but say things that hurt without thinking. i can't imagine why anyone would put themselves through the pain of being my friend for any reason other than pity. i spend my money as much as i can on the people around me to apologise for my insufferable existence. i try to punish myself. bruising, cutting and bleeding this body isn't enough. having my soul ripped out of my chest and ground into a paste is the minimum of what i deserve for being such a worthless piece of shit. i can't help but say only what hurts those around me the most. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. the world would be better if i couldn't speak. i don't know why the people around me decide to put themselves through this. i'm sorry to all of you for the misfortune of being my friend. no one deserves to have to put up with me

One day I will get to be myself physically (and much to the chagrin of my family), every dawn brings that day ever closer.

dudeee I just drank way too much hot chocolate </3 I feel like a milk fish tank ugh I'm going to bed

Had my first job interview today!!! I don't have any experience (obviously) and I don't have an education of any kind (I'm still in high school) so all I could do was show up early and dressed the best I can! We'll see if I get an email back!!

I don't know how I manage to cause 100% of the problems in my life, my hell is entirely of my own making. One day I'll learn to do better.