Bex

- the moon and stars

- music

gonna be really transparent for a minute. ive recently not been good at “grow and learn and be content with what I have and stay calm” and maybe it’s part ✨ that time of the month✨ but either way it doesn’t give me the right to stop taking time to appreciate the little things and the people I got. so this is gonna be a few things that I am grateful for and that make me smile no matter the day.

- my rubber duck collection

- my lovely girlfriend and all the memes she sends me, my friends and all the other people I love

- pictures I have of memories on my phone

- animals

- the beautiful weather outside

Listen to my bands single :)

I have been trying to teach myself (especially on nights like tonight when I have bad anxiety) to tell myself as much as I need it that “there is good in this bad world, and I am a good person”

I tend to stick to the thought that this world is a terrible one. one where I don’t want to be and the things people care about makes me anxious and sick to my stomach. but what matters is what *I* care about. what i am doing to make myself a better person and to make this place better. and saying that to myself over and over while listening to calming music has really helped. i’ve grown a lot with that over the past year or two and i’m glad I have. I don’t like that some certain things are way too hard for me. and i’m learning to accept it a tiny bit more every day.

i saw a little analogy thing today: when you are standing in 12 feet of water drowning, in an endless loop of thoughts, know that you’re not alone. and just because someone else might be in 24 feet of water, you’re both drowning and it doesn’t make it any less important.

I hope one day the world gets better. I know i’m part of the world whether I want to be or not. but being a part of a world where there is good and bad does not make me bad. and I am here to love as best I can, and to try to do my part of being a good person.

there’s something very special and refreshing about thinking about how deeply you love and cherish your person. I see much more than just a person; I see a healthy love, a best friend, a life, and someone who makes me wanna be a better person.

the moon glows a little bigger,

and the world makes more sense,