GionSimp

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A small take of fabrication backstory towards our favourite Medicine Seller.

Enjoy reading ^^

Although this is only the Japanese release, the new trailers are hyping me up like crazy. In the meantime, enjoy the newest trailer where Medicine seller is displayed most prominently !

While i wait five more months for the international release, Ill just set my predictions out under this cut.

Although this is only the Japanese release, the new trailers are hyping me up like crazy. In the meantime, enjoy the newest trailer where Medicine seller is displayed most prominently !

While i wait five more months for the international release, Ill just set my predictions out under this cut.

Although this is only the Japanese release, the new trailers are hyping me up like crazy. In the meantime, enjoy the newest trailer where Medicine seller is displayed most prominently !

While i wait five more months for the international release, Ill just set my predictions out under this cut.

Propaganda:

Revy -

"made my buddy realize she liked girls. probably helps that she kills people by wearing very little clothing."

Medicine Seller -

"Well, I'm not actually a part of the LGBTQ+. I think. Uhhhhh

I’m not necessarily surrounded by homophobic people in my life, in fact as an art student I have a fair share of LGBTQ friends. I’ve always been that straight friend who everyone thinks is a lesbian or Najime (KCC) kind of gender, but I’ve never been attracted to girls and I’ve never felt like I was anything other than a girl. Well, we’ll get back to the latter soon.

I watched Mononoke; Karakasa.

I love Kon Kusuriuri. I want him. I want to BE him. I want both at the same time and it’s infuriating. I want his gender, the kind where he’s so proudly and unbudgingly feminine while still being so masculine too. His deeper voice fits surprisingly well with his character design. God I want to be an unabashedly shameless twink that busts ghosts while flirting with men and women in an eccentric manner.

Here’s the thing. He’s 185 cm. I’m 160. Okay, no biggie. But it gets a bit personal here with my own body image issues. I like being a girl, I like guys. But I’ve only ever liked guys for how they looked. I am so jealous. I want their stick legs, okay. The fact that they have no ass. Literally, I want that. I want to be a guy who chooses to be feminine, not a girl who is feminine because she has to be. It makes no sense. I’m confused. And my body type isn’t the masculine kind that’s for sure. I could never be Kon. It’s depressing. I’ll never be him, and I have to live with it.

Honestly, I have never actually thought of dating a guy, can’t even imagine it. Whenever I see a straight couple, I never see myself as the girlfriend who’s giggling away. I see the boyfriend, smiling and walking tall, and I think: I want a girlfriend, and I want to be this person for her.

But I’m short, I’m admittedly pretty but not in the way that I want to be. I want to be androgynous, I want people to be confused on whether I’m a girl or a guy. I wanna be tall enough that I can be a guy, but short enough that I can still be a girl. Everything could be fixed, maybe, if my body was just different

When I draw Kon, outline his legs and his arms, I always feel like I’m just drawing who I want to be. I want him. I want his gender. I don’t know if I ever can have his gender.

I don’t know what I want anymore, I always thought I was sure (maybe) but now that Kon is here I’m just confused. Is it because I’m not as cis as I thought I was, or is it because of my body dysphoria? I’m too much of a coward to consult any irl lgbtq friends on this, so I’m resorting to a tumblr poll. lol

Am I in denial right now. Initially I was doing this form for fun but now I’m literally reeling from wtf I just wrote, because I’ve never put it into words before. Am I cooked gang?