When wanting love feels heavy
Just a regular weekend where I watch romance movies and feel lonely… or maybe I just sit there wondering when it will be my turn. Will I ever feel that kind of passion? And then I end up asking myself, “Will I?”
I can’t really trust people—especially boys/men. Most of them seem too experienced, and almost everyone I talk to makes it feel like they’re trying to play, not build something real.
Maybe I’ll find someone in the future. For now, it’s just thoughts wandering in my head.
I want to find someone who is genuinely interested in me, who wants to know me— to start as friends, naturally. Not someone who suddenly wants a relationship out of nowhere, or who talks just to take advantage or waste time.
At the same time, I know I’m not fully ready yet. When I love, I give everything. That’s why I don’t want to overthink every guy I talk to, wondering if he has feelings or intentions.
Does everyone feel this way sometimes?
I’m honestly tired of how careless human relationships have become— how easily you can lose a good friend over something stupid, how talking a little can turn into something animalistic instead of meaningful.
I see girls going out with boys after just one meeting, but what I’m asking for is real love, not desire.
To everyone looking for real love but feeling stuck where they are—you’re not alone.
