I just really like to write

I wish I could to stop caring. But how do I stop caring when what others do hurt me? How do I stop caring when the people I love most aim to hurt me the most?

I feel like I’m screaming into a bottomless pit of despair.

The thing is, I’ve learned to be alone. Physically and mentally, I’m prepared to have no one. I’ve come to value my time and if you make me feel unwanted, I will not hesitate to distance myself and find a new place better suited for me.

You hurt me and I thought I would get over it. But today someone mentioned one thing and my brain went down that hole again. You made me fear something I used to love so much and that’s why it still hurts.

You deserve someone who has the capacity to love you no matter what.

I’ve learned to hide my true feelings to avoid the bite of your uncontrolled anger.

Why reach out when all I need is a pen, paper, and some music to quiet the raging war inside my soul?

How do I explain that it’s always loud in my head, and there’s no way to stop it?