Choose NOW what will make sense LATER

here's the deal. i currently have 20 pounds left to lose, and i will stop at nothing to get there. my name is not tabitha, but you may call me that. i would prefer to remain anonymous on this blog, as a few of my close real-life friends have tumblr, and i would like them to never see this ever. in recovery for an ED. it's hard, yeah. i've relapsed twice or more, but i'm trying. that's what counts, right? 17 years of experience. 5'6" started this blog in april of 2011. started counting in may 2011. SW: 150 (april'11) HW: 181.2 (july'10) LW: 131 (march'12) CW: sigh. too much. goal#1: 145 (may23'11) goal#2: 140 (june26'11) goal#3: 135 (february11'12) goal#4: 130 goal#5: 125 ultimate goal: 125-119 daddy did a double take on august26'11.