When I say flesh is temporary what I mean is. We grow old and die.
I’ve watched family members die of cancer, my grandfather die of alheizimers. Watch memory and body fail and grow weak.
But -who- they where didn’t change, not in the eyes.
Except for alheizimers. My grandpa was -gone- by the end. It was like looking at a confused old man who smiled at me like he maybe recongized me but didn’t know from where.
Maybe it didn’t help that I was told by his sister before she passed that I look very much like their mother.
The great grandmother who died long before I was born.
Maybe he saw his mother in me, instead of his eldest grandchild.
By the end… his eyes where different and my grandpa was gone, before he died I knew I had already lost him.
What the hell does flesh matter to me when an entire lifetime is right there in the eyes.
A lifetime that can evaporate like a drop in a bucket under a hot bright lamp if illness strikes the brain.
I support anyone to do what they must and need to do so they can look in a mirror and feel GOOD about themselves, so they can smile and breathe deeply and just be happy.
I sat and watched illness and death take so many family members…
My first crush in hs died of illness. They where so goddamned young. I cried so much.
I still visit them. They are buried in the same cemetery that my grandpa is in.
The same one I’ll go in. (EHHH. Grandma kinda went and bought the whole family cemetery plots when I was in highschool. Soooo I’ve had a grave for years! I know exactly where I’m going!)
So I’m openly pansexual because I believe it’s the person who matters. To like them for -them-.
The rest? Skin can be burned and scarred. Bones can break and shatter, flesh and bone can be torn and cut apart.
We can be disfigured and maimed. We can lose limbs and come down with life altering illnesses that can DESTROY our bodies and leave our minds intact.
But the heart is what should matter.
But I have a love for bright eyes of all colors, for big goofy smiles.
And aggressive kisses that steal breathe.
And time to share silence and experience peace.
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