walk with me

I found this little worm-thingy outside today and named him Snape

So I mentioned the thing about songs like 'sticking with you', in the previous post.

Further explained, those songs that you listened to non-stop and really felt like you could relate to in a certain time-period of your life.

You didn't even have to relate to them. It could just be a song that you felt, for whatever reason, made really good sense to you at the time.

No matter how different they are, they all had that in common.

Songs you've been so attached to, that they can't be forgotten.

I just realized that it looks pretty messy in long texts.

So yeah

Everything is falling apart right now

Everyone is either mad at me or disappointed in me just for making the right choices

What am I supposed to do?

Am I just going to let myself rot between the rest of the dead flowers?

Right now, you are my sun, you are my sugar, you are my water

You are the most beautiful flower amongst the others

But tell me

Why do you refuse to bloom and instead, choose to let yourself rot, so I can't help either me or you, grow?

I would embrace you

just like I used to

but all of my petals

have turned into metal

19.50

(The inevitable silence of regret in the evening)

I can't figure out if I'm actually in love with this person or just captivated by them...

It's like they're actually kinda bad for me but they're just so interesting and unconventionally beautiful in they're very own way

They make me feel like a safe flowergarden deep inside, but at the same time, a nervous wreck everywhere else

I can't tell them and I wouldn't take the chance to do so in a million years...

I don't allow myself to talk to with them anymore

Not even to them.

in two months it will all be over

Or at least I hope so

Please don't linger

Please don't linger