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“To answer that you have to ask yourself another question. After it was all over If you could go back and change it last time would you?”

Bekka dropped the phone. It felt wrong to disturb him but if there was a chance… “I-I don’t know if I’m strong enough.” She felt it in her gut that she should fly in for this. Bekka picked back up the phone, “Commissioner,” She sat there silent. It was one year later and it was haunting her. “Thank you. for letting me know.” She couldn’t bring herself to say that she was flying because she wasn’t. It just hurt to much. “I just need to absorb this, ya know.” Her voice quivered.

“Yeah of course.... At the very least we might find a missed fleeting piece of evidence that’s a clue in to who done it to him. and a Banes... If there’s anything I can do. You know where to find me.”

Ben had found no leads in Dimitri’s death and it was coming up on becoming a cold case that was no longer being funded. When Reese presented the idea that another autopsy be done he had no choice but to say yes because he promised Bekka he’d figure this out and he hadn’t. He called Bekka. “Banes it’s Chef Gordon. I thought you should hear it from me. They’re opening Carter’s grave tomorrow and conducting another Autopsy. Sorry to open old wounds, but I thought you need to know.”

Vera shook her head disgusted with Bekka. “You couldn’t even respect him enough just one time to allow him to the farewell he would want.” Vera turned to the preacher man. “Hey you! Dean, Carter wouldn’t want you here just know that!” Vera walked over the the coffin placing her hand on it crying. “I’m so sorry Carter.” She felt it should have been her first.

Elle came through walking on the outdoor rug to the stand where she signed her name in the book tearfully along with Deana and a pregnant Frannie.

Bekka was upset once more as if she didn’t have enough on her that she would have to carry the baggage of Dimitri’s insane friend. Nova wanted to see her father before they burried him but Bekka refused to let her because she said she wanted Nova to remember her dad they way he was, So Nova was struggling to believe it was actually her daaad in the coffin. “It just seems staged.” Nova whispered to Reese. “Maybe Bekka killed him if that’s even really him…. it could be Rocks for all we know.” She bit her lip a little trying to hold back her tears. “I need to tell you something Reese….” Nova looked around to make sure no one was listening. Bekka seen Nova whispering but ignored her. “I heard mom. Her voice in the background of the phone call with Noah. Well…I think it was her.”

“Attention everyone!” Father Dean stood there getting all the attention, well for the most part. “Let’s bow our sinful heads and pray.” Thaddeus was intrigued looking around seeing all the grown ups with their eyes closed and heads looking down. “Loving Lord we rejoice in Your victory over sin and death and the grave and thank You that death has lost its sting and the grave has been robbed of its victory, in and through the precious name of Jesus, in Whose name we pray, Hallelujah.” Dean raised his head, “You may open your eyes little ones.” He said to Thadd but Thadd was crying and that made Bekka cry. “Can we have a break? I need a break.” She needed her Valium. “There is no break when you’re dealing with the lord Bekka dear, sorry.” He nods and mingles through the crowd. Vera shook her head at Bekka, “You’ll pay for this one Bekks. You made Carter’s death a mockery!” She said and rolled her eyes heading back to her car. Bekka wasn’t one to challenge female conformation but she did imagine herself slamming Vera’s head into the coffin a couple of times today. “I guess you’re not staying for my speech!” Bekka shouted to Vera. “I’ve seen and heard enough of you for the rest of my life.” Vera said as she made her way out of view but remained around in respect for her best friend.

“Mom…” Bekka said as she kissed away Thadd’s tears and he became fussy. “I don’t know If I’m strong enough to do a speech…in front of the boys.” Dimitri spoke words at Walter’s funeral but now Bekka was forced to do it herself. Rebekkah patted her shoulder, “Only you can deliver this and do it justice. He was yours no one else’s.” She denied her daughter’s gesture. Bekka rook her meds and grabbed the boys hands taking the place Dean had stood. “I…” Bekka looked out at the others. “Dimitri changed my life—” her throat felt so much pain it was unbearable  “No, he gave me a life,” Her voice became raspy as she chucked back tears. “I’m so grateful to him.” She shook her head and ugly cried. Bekka was disappointed in herself. “I’m sorry–” She kissed the coffin feeling to blame. “I’ll always love you, always.” And for the first time he didn’t reply back to her i love you and she felt abandoned. Kat hugged Bekka. “I’m so sorry, love.” She said and looked over her shoulder at Damon.

Dallas couldn’t believe they were acting like this mostly Vera. He kew emotions were high and it was all fueled well. “Ver, Ya don’t mean that she’s doin what she thinks the boys need. No one is seein clear right now.” They had lost a lot too. Dallas stayed by Bekka’s side feeling it wrong to leave her when her father and her baby daddy had both passed and he was the only man in her life she could lean on and he knew she needed that because of Walter.  He looked at her as she spoke with eyes that said ya doin good. But they were just for comfort. he put his arm around the small of her back. 

  Ben looked around at this shit show so called celebration of life and was sad for Dimitri but glad that his own remembrance would be nothing of the sorts. “Do mind?” He asked seeing her nod it was okay Ben took the stand. Detective Carter was a lot of things. Arrogant, literal, serious, but one day this young lady walked in and for the first time since he transferred over to our unit I saw him cutting up in the break room just to get her attention. The biggest goal on his mind wasn’t his work to try and snag my job away any more it was about trying to get her to fall for him the way he did for her with plastic candy canes.” He half smiled. “He was much to proud to admit it but the kid got butterflies around her so badly that sometimes I swear I could see’em flying around the room when those two were together. I watched a man so determined to get to the top fall in love with a woman and step back so that she could work and suddenly the only reason he was in the building anymore was to bring her lunch. When he rejoined the force along with his fiancee the station felt strong again. He was dependable and she kept his heart in the right place so that he could be. Carter dedicated 18 years of his life to the protection of others myself included. Bullets flying he risked his life just to give me a fighting chance even though I’d already been hit and we did always see eye to eye. And he lost his life on duty responding to a call from our station to help bring to justice those that had fallen just hours earlier and that makes him our brother.” Those still alive in the force. 

“And just like him we won’t rest until we bring those responsible to justice or our hearts stop beating.” He looked at Bekka. “I’d like to give him one last radio call if that’s alright with you.” He nods and walks over to the cruiser pulled up beside the grass and grabs the mic to the radio and swallows hard once before taking a deep breath. “ 0116,  0116.  0116 do you copy?  0116. Last call for 0116. After Eighteen years of dedication I.D  0116 Is out of service. on 10/31/18 Detective Dimitri Jarvis Carter was senselessly murdered while on his way to responding to dispatch. We thank him for his bravery and he and his family’s sacrifice. Rest well Detective, We’ll take it from here.” Ben turned the speaker off and folded flag off of Dimitri’s coffin and walked over handing it to Bekka with a nod of condolence and looking at the Boy’s. “They’ll make great men someday.” Ben hated seeing a family torn apart and felt the need to hold his tightly in his arms when he got back home but sadly he was going to have to attend many more funerals this day including his own brothers.

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Elle interrupted, “Baby Carter, I need a name? He’s stable and myself and the team are giving him the best care. Although, we’re not nearly close enough to being out of the woods just yet. You know the process is similar to Spencer’s it’s just a wait and see kind of thing. All you can do is know that right now in this moment he’s okay.”  

Bekka looked at Nick, “Fuck your rainbows!” She said angry and hurt. She ignored Ezra seeing her mother Bekka was for some reason relieved that she actually came. And embraced her mother’s warm hug because Bekka did need to be babied around because whether she admitted it or not she was fragile. Bekka sobbed a little more but only a sob her mother could pull out of her with just a few word and a hug. Bekka was so worried about the baby but too afraid to know if he was okay but Elle volunteered the information. “Uhm, Atticus–Dimbek Carter.”  Dimitri had chose his first name and Bekka thought what beter way to pay tribute to their romance than to make their ship name his middle. “It’s funny…if he was here right now I would have tried to fight him on it knowing i’d settle for it after we bickered a little over the name.” Bekka shrugs, “But now I just choose to name Atticus, Atticus.” Bekka tried to put up a strong front. Rebekkah looked at her daughter, “Dimbek? what even is that?” she had never heard of such a name. Bekka rolled her eyes, “It’s our ship name Mom!” she said like a teenager. Rebekkah nods, “Okay, okay it’s good. I like it. You did good.” She touched her daughter’s arm. Elle half smiles, “Perfect. You can see him. I’ll have the nurse bring you to see Atticus Dimbek Carter.” Elle nods and did just that. They looked onto the incubator. Bekka gasped like she couldn’t believe it was real but it was. she just cried it was all she felt she could do. “All of this happened because of me. I take full responsibility if it wasn’t for me Dimitri would still be alive. My boys wouldn’t have to grow up without their father because they wouldn’t exist.  I should have stayed far, far away from him. I could have saved us all so much pain.” Bekka was so angry as she tossed around empty words and blame. “I should have listened to Dimitri when he told me not to go on that damn mission!” She raised her voice. Rebekkah spoke up, “Listen at you. You don’t mean have the words you say and the other half you can’t remember. You’ve always been like this Bekky. It’s your nature. You know the truths.” Her mother made Bekka cringe to the bone.

“I need Atti to be okay,” Bekka said wanting to hold him so badly. “Mom how am I going to tell the boys that daddy isn’t coming home anymore? I want to lie.” Bekka was feeling impulsive. Rebekkah shook her head, “You’re not lying to my grandbabies, I know you think you’re protecting them Bekka but in the long run you’re the one that would be hurting them please believe me I’ve made these mistakes. she was always frustrated by her daughter. Bekka nods taking her mother’s advise. “Will you and Papa pick the boys up now? I don’t feel like they’re safe. I may have killed the man that did this to Dimitri?” She looked over at Nick. Rebekkah nods, “Okay… yeah, we’ll go get them. Don’t worry they’ll be safe.” It was hard to imagine Bekka killing someone. Her parents left to the boys.  

“Nick, I need to know if that awful excuse for a human is still breathing.”

Nick nods and goes to find out but i stopped by Ben. “I can answer that. He’s alive. he just got out of surgery and it looks good for him. But now I have to say I know what your going though is beyond words right now and as much as I agree with what you done to that bastard as chief I can’t allow lethal force to be used on a the unarmed and restrained prisoner that hasn’t been proven guilty no matter how much I believe that he is. But I suppose it goes without saying that you’re suspended and demoted indefinitely. Take your time with your badge, but I’m gonna need your gun as soon as possible. I hope you know I don’t enjoy this. This is the hard part of my job. This is what it means to be chief. For one reason or another in the past two days I’ve lost most of my best and today that includes you. I hope your time off can help you to heal. You’ll be payed without question for six months. After that I’ll see what I can do.” He looked at Atticus. “All my best to you and your children. If you need anything that I can help with you know where to find me. Oh and His room is 224 in the ICU.” Kratos he meant.

Ben wished she hadn’t she’d now be scarred forever. No one should have to see the person they loved that way. Ben watched and it was difficult to say the least. He grabbed her up by her under arms pulling her up and away back to the car. He called the coroner’s office and back up. When they arrived the coroners office took custody of “Dimitri’s” Remains for a forensic evaluation since it was clear this was no accident. “There are no words, but I promise you we;ll get who done this..” He sighed. “I’m so sorry for you and your children. If there is anything I can do you let me know. I’m here for ya.”

“It’s not your fault and you went on that mission because it was your duty!” He sighed. “You know this. don’t let you emotions change your priorities. That mission was both a duty to your heart and your title. That’s what being a cop is. We’ll Take care of Kratos. Soon enough.” They arrived at the scene and Ben got out. “Stay behind me.” He said and they slowly started down the hill. As Ben approaches the front of the cruiser he walks slowly and suddenly 3 vultures quickly flew out from the broken windows. Be was half startled and jumped back quickly before realizing what it was. But it wasn’t a good sign that was for sure. Ben took a step closer and seen the hideous truth. it was morbid and disgusting but mostly he was so terribly disappointed at the waste of life the waste of a father, a lover, a soon to be husband and a great detective. “Oh my god.” He said under his breath looking at the faceless body so over dressed as always with shiny yet blood stained hair. It was hard to believe this was what had come of Carter. Ben felt like he had failed his team. As Bekka quickly approached Ben Pulled her into himself. “No!” He said not wanting her to see her love like this. “Get back to the cruiser call for back up. Now. Go! that’s an order.”

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Bekka woke to Gadget’s crying waking her from a nightmare about Kratos. “Dim!” She jolted frightened, sitting up quickly catching her breath. Usually Dimitri would let Bekka sleep in a little while longer while he took care of Gadget and got the morning started. A couple of minutes went by before Bekka looked over seeing Dimitri’s empty bedside and the twins were still asleep in his place and yet Gadget was still crying. Bekka walked over to the crib. “Where’s Daddy? Bet you weren’t expecting Mommy this early.” she said picking Gadget up to soothe him.  Bekka wandered on into the Kitchen where the coffee pot should have been brewing. “Dim?” Bekka opened the front door to find the newspaper that normally was on the table and spread open. Bekka shut the door and locked it as she went back into the bedroom to get her phone. “No missed calls or texts…” Bekka speed dials Dimitri but it was just voice mail. “Hey. It’s Bekk– I miss you. Call me back. Love you.” She hung up and followed up with a text that read: where are you ray-bans?” Bekka pulled on her clothes. “ Get up Thadd, Wake your brother. Go potty. Get dressed.” She walked over to the fridge opening it looking for some microwavable Taco Bell she had much anticipated. “What? I don’t think Daddy came home at all last night.” Thadd yawned and had pee’d the bed. “Kay,” Thadd replied and did as Bekka told him waking Ty. 

Bekka’s best guess was Dimitri was needed at the station do to the awful event so she understood why he didn’t make it. The twins walked into the kitchen and Bekka kissed them and loaded the boys up in the car and drove them to the babysitter. “Mommy be back soon babes.” She kissed them again. “I love you and be good boys.” She smiled before leaving to the station. 

Bekka walked into Dimitri’s office with a smile thinking she’d see him at his desk even if he was just leaning over it as she reminisced about how he looked that one time with his pretty boy hair tussled in his face before he asked her out. But the room was empty. Bekka turned around seeing Ben in passing. “Hey, Commissioner Gordon…Have you seen Detective Carter? The fbi contacted him  last night. It was requested he be here. But,” she shrugged. “I haven’t heard from him since.” she began to feel she had a right to be concerned now. Maybe it was possible he ended up back at the hospital with Nova and Reese? she thought to herself.

“Hope’s great she’s a little princess and she knows it. She’s not challenged or anything but sometimes she.... she’s a little ditsy ya know?” He laughed. “I’m sorry to hear that. You were a handsome couple. Anything I can do?”

“Oh so you moved. Great Evie and I have a place large enough for all of us but we’ve kind of got an itch for something new. Like somewhere that don’t have memories of what happend with Kringle and her trying to ya know kill me.” He sighed. “She’s doing better now. She just gave birth to our son and she’s in love with him.” He smiled thinking about them. “Can I ask you something personal? are you and Carter still together? ever since you said you have no desire I just sensed some tension.”

“Well.” He took another bite. “Get your calories in first Banes it’s gonna be a long day. Have a seat and a munchie.” He wanted to get an idea of how she was mentally first to know what kind of duty to put her on.  “Tell me how things are. We’re friends here. How’s the family? How’s time off been?”

Bekka walked into work with two coffee’s and a brown paper bag probably with at least four chocolate chip muffins in them. “Okay Sir can you point me in the direction as to which I will use this cup of coffee and diabetes infused bread to win over my partner?  Pretty please and thank you.” She grinned so happy to back at work. 

“Just no women right?” He grinned. “He asks for no men.” They were strange. “I shall ask him later then perhaps he might have a preference. Alright We look all good here.”

“If you’re sure.” He pulled out papers. “How should I work this schedule out? Are you and Carter wanting to be partnered up? should I do different shifts for parental reasons?

Bekka walked into the police station, Ah the familiar smell of paperwork and coffee with whispers of gossip and eyes lurking around every corner felt like home. “Commissioner Gordon, do you have a minute?” She asked somehow managing to get by the front desk lady without an appointment. 

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Eve was proud of her sexy man in command. “Good job dear!” She smiles and pecks him on the lips before he left to sing. “Hmm? oh yeah. Hope will always be scrambled in the head, Darby.” she shakes her head like poor thing about hope not realizing she fucked up Dimitri’s name . You could tell Bekka didn’t like them speaking of Hope this way but she just couldn’t deal with it right now.

“Oh well, That’s too rad-Bad! I said bad.  You’ll be missed, but I understand. Three kids and a job is a lot to take on. I’m just glad I can do it.” Ben looked at Bekka like wtf. “We’ll talk about this later Banes. I’m not sure what yo think is going on here.” He said and walked off to the stage and got up there and Ben and Ken sang different songs at the same time because they never made up their minds.