BEMSI

still unsure how the brand mgr found me tho. i guess even though i've been away people are noticing me?

this brand was founded in atl and some ppl i went to college with, ppl i've seen around, etc have been to some of their events before. atlanta is extremely cliquey and superficial and being in these spaces can make me anxious. but what if i have fun? what if i make an acquaintance? what if i see a familiar face and it doesn't go poorly?

but what ab my friend? the friend i'm having dinner w/ is a new friend from med school who also happens to be from ga. we started at different times and i haven't seen her since i left the island in may. we always talked about hanging out in gnd but it never happened. and though she said she's okay with rescheduling, i don't find it fair.

i don't even know how the host got my number. it's a partiful invite and i don't have the app, so i'm not sure how else he got my info to add me. i have worn the brand's clothes in some social media posts before. either that or he's noticed me in atl somewhere? no idea. i do want to go. i do. but i already have plans w/ my friend. she said she's okay with rescheduling but i don't think it would be fair. the event is in atl atl and i don't like being in atl atl at night + alone. a bit too crazy. she doesn't want to go tho. hmm.

i've been studying all summer and aside from church (with the exception of my bestie's proposal and her show) i haven't been anywhere. so it would be fun to step out for once. and it's not even "out out" like that. it's a brand popup. but this is atlanta...lol. i might see some people i know /:, that's the thing. i've purposefully been incognito. i don't really care for some people knowing i'm back.

she's probably in her mid-30s. i hear a west African accent. she's taking calls left and right and typing away at her laptop. flipping her hair to the side occasionally, almost routinely. lone gucci bag sitting on her left side. her son walked around the table in circles and repeatedly ignored his mother's requests to get a book. her daughter scolds him for being annoying.