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How about a little video?

Do you know what it’s like to outgrow? To outgrow every single thing you own? To have to buy bigger and bigger until suddenly…there is nothing bigger?

There are no bras in my size. Barely any panties that fit. Even my baggiest clothes now feel tight against my bulging skin.

This bra used to be too big — it’s an ASOS 26. The largest size they carry (and even then, part of the reason I bought is they almost never carry any sort of bra that big). And it’s a US26! That’s a 30-32UK.

These tights and underwear? Both Torrid 5’s. There’s only one size left before I size out of even Torrid, whose clothes used to be too hideous for me to even condescend to consider. Now they’re all I have left.

I hate it, and yet…it thrills me. What happens when there’s no clothes left for me? When it’s mumu’s or never leaving the house? When there simply are no bras that can contain me no matter what I do?

How big will I grow when I have no option but to stay in? See even as I look at these photos, and know this is the fattest I’ve ever been…all I see is how skinny I am and how much larger I want to be.

Before I ever started gaining vs tonight, after stuffing my poor face with enough food for an entire family