A Belle for Her

Ngl though, I have a strangeeee feeling she’s planning something 👀 She made part of the plans with her best friend who lives in the city we’re going to so we can all meet up and hangout a bit. They made reservations at a winery I had ZERO involvement in, and while friend is coming along with her camera to take photos of us, the husband is coming later for dinner.

Stats final: it’s a retake, I have an A in the class right now, but still want to review the practice exam (haven’t started). Exam in 3 days.

Econ final: B- in the class. Most exam questions are conceptual, but few mathematical. I have the most confidence in this one. Exam in 2 days.

Biology: A in the class. Lab practical exam in 2 days, short answer only. Need to review prior lab experiment protocols. Cumulative Final exam in 4 days. Definitely need to review day prior.

My first ex had a history of cheating and I still dated her. My second ex had a history of emotional cheating and I still dated her. My current gf has a history of physical and emotional cheating and I still dated her.

My two exes did end up cheating on me. Why did I still give my gf a chance? She wanted to know.

I have experienced much worse things in life from people closer to me and watched them grow into completely different people down the road. A persons experiences can shape how they grow, but it does not define them. Patterns do.

My first ex cheated on me once, got herpes from it, and lost the one person who supported her in everything she pursued in life. Hopefully she’s learned not to cheat on her partners. I was not going to make her cheating on me become a repeated pattern.

My second ex cheated on me once, and lost the woman she wanted to be married to and have children with. Hopefully she’s learned not to cheat on her partners. I refused to let her make cheating on me become a pattern.

My current gf has never cheated on me and I don’t expect her to, the same way I didn’t expect my exes to cheat on me. If she decides to cheat on me, she will lose the woman she and everyone in her life knows to be her soulmate. She will regret it for the rest of her life, the same if not more than she regretted cheating on her past partners, the way my exes regretted cheating on me and their other past partners.

I’m not scared about a partner cheating on me. If someone wants to cheat, they’re going to cheat whether I want them to or not. The only thing in my power is to leave the second that they do and take away all the love and respect I’d ever offered. It all goes off the table.

I know I have been the best partner I could possibly be, because even a year after no contact, each of my exes still came back, begging for that second chance that doesn’t exist. It’s not my ego, it’s not conceitedness, and it’s not arrogance. I treated all my partners with respect and care they didn’t receive from anyone else. Maybe they’ll find someone later who does, and hopefully they’ve learned their lesson about treating them well.

If a partner cheats on me, it’s not the end of my world, but it’s always the end of theirs.

Did I tell you about the Halloween party me and my gf went to and while me and our mutual friend are inside talking, my gf is talking outside with two dude about her tattoos and piercings. She mentioned wanting her septum for a long time but waiting till she was single to get it. They asks the obvious question, why?

She held off bc she was worried about eating someone out while it was healing.

These guys laughed and said “It wouldn’t get infected, it’s not like you’re sticking your nose in it”

My gf was BAFFLED. Befuddled. Flabbers had been ghasted.

WTF DO YE MEAN YUR NOT GETTIN UR NOSE WET WEN YA EATIN COOCH?!?

It’s been literally 10 years and I haven’t felt my calves this sore in a LONG time, but oh my god I loved being able to jump right back into it like I never stopped. Like riding a bike, I went into my stances and did my footwork and combos without even thinking about it.

My gf has been in Krav before but not anything else, so we’re working on it together and it’s been so much fun! I remember my first ex coming to see me train and she thought it was dumb afterwards. My second ex tried to learn from me but she just got frustrated that she wasn’t getting it. My gf has been patient, vocal on what she knows she needs help with, and has been such a good sport!

Everyone at the class was generally really nice, except one who was just rude af to me bc my combos I’ve learned follow different numbers and she got irritated. Other than that, it’s been nice getting back into my element and ngl very reassuring hearing it immediately from the instructors in the first minute they recognized I had prior experience.

But bc I don’t follow or have any followers, IG is constantly trying to recommend people to me, often my exes / ex situationships etc.

The smug little bit of joy I had to see my first ex gained a bunch of weight (not saying that to shit on bigger people, but bc she gave me shit about my own weight to where I had an ED and now the tables have turned), and my other ex is in a relationship but still doing the same shady shit of making her account public, deleting/reposting their pictures together or removing her own profile photo just to be replaced with the old photo of the two of them.