Too Many Words

Is coming home 

Are mixed with the scent of booze 

A funny haze I can’t see through 

I felt like I should want to reach out

Forbidden and tempting

What ever I was supposed to feel

Like a secret, newly shared

Because I don’t want either of you back 

My heart is aching for someone 

For more time

Months with you flew by

Time

Now you're gone and seconds drag

Time

That something so mathematical

Time

Could be so fluid, flexible, unfeeling

Time

Time heals everything

I loved you 

Dear x,

I haven't seen you in a month. I haven't talked to you in a month. I miss you every day. I thought I'd be relieved that you were gone, but I just feel empty. I'm sorry about the way I treated you when we were together. I'm sorry about the way I talked to you. You needed me to be gentle and patient and I couldn't be either of those things for you. I know it's no excuse, but this was one of the worst years of my life and I wasn't in a place where I could love you the way you needed to be loved. I hope there's another chance for us in the future, but I know that's not likely. I miss having you in my life. I miss waking up to you. I miss the quiet moments that I was learning to love. I was learning to love you. I'm so sorry. About everything. Please come back. I can do better.

Love me.

Please.

I don’t regret a lot

I make mistakes 

But I stand by them 

But you...

I regret the way I treated you

I regret the way I talked to you

I regret how I let you 

Just walk out the door

And I didn’t say anything 

Maybe you’d be here now 

Who know I loved you

Are me

About how much losing you

Hurts me

Then I'm just admitting

I fell into you

Watched in awe

As galaxies and universes

Passed me by

Falling through your eyes

Like a sky full of stars

I fell into you

Now you're gone

But I keep falling