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Grounds for Love - Chapter 18
This whole partnership started with a conversation @coffeeandtheton and I had about smut writing, what it is, who does it well, how do we make it our own, and how we hate the word and need something else, so Coffee figured it out, a tag was created, and now the chapter to go with it is here. So without further ado, we present 'plot driven intimacy' Enjoy!
Can't believe we're saying this - see you Sunday for our epilogue 🩵
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Hi! Any chance we could get a little sneak peek of Grounds for Love before the next chapter? 🥹 Even just one line would make my day. Please, please? ❤️
okay so @coffeeandtheton and I are very excited about tomorrow and weren't really planning on teasing it, but if it will make your day, we're willing to do it:
“I missed you,” he admits. He feels Kate sigh into him “I missed you too. I’ve realized you're kind of my favorite person. Quite a change from the bane of my existence.” “And you,” Anthony says, “are the object of all my desires.”
also, this is the headspace we should all be in ahead of tomorrow:
and if you haven't - catch up on Sunday's chapter here!
Thanks for the answer! No I mean it totally makes sense. No complaints! I suppose Anthony is just terrifyingly motivated, decisive, and efficient? For the lack of better descriptions.
I often have this feeling around those high functioning people. They make wise decisions on about everything and have it all. It is as though they are actually solving household problems with game theoretic modeling and optimization algorithms, and sometimes it turns out that is indeed how they naturally operate in life.
So good thing Kate is Kate, Anthony is Anthony, and Anthony cannot be without Kate. Otherwise this guy would be just as efficient when he eventually sets his mind on another target and his previous pursuits will be ruined.
I think, and that's true with both of the couple we talked about, that we can truly see how they complete one another. Anthony wants to buy a house, Kate will make it a home, Anthony buys the two ground floor of the building, Kate will - you'll have to wait to see what she does.
But all of this to say - and I do feel like I can say this because @coffeeandtheton and I have officially finished editing our next story, High Summer Kanthony are maybe the most two pieces of the puzzle we've each written (A house is bought in that one as well).
fake boyfriend anthony was already moving crazy when it comes to kate. I’m afraid of how unhinged and smitten this man will be now that their love is out in the open lol
Rest assured, our last two chapter, which can be nicknamed “immediate bliss” and “epilogue” respectively will provide the unhingness. And yet, still not my most unhinged.
(Also, @coffeeandtheton which one of our Anthony’s is the more unhinged?)

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This Anthony is not unlike Model Behavior Anthony!
They both invest in real estate before the love confession! 🤣
It’s almost like, the game plan is to build a beautiful castle, stand by and wait for the moment the princess wanders in, lock the door immediately and throw away the key so she could never get away.
So so sweet but a little bit concerning if you think of it this way 😂
Well Model Behavior Anthony ended up not buying that first property, but I get what you mean.
I think generally, my Anthony’s are go big or go home, and one way for them to show how serious they are and how much they care is through this. I’m setting roots, and I’m setting them with you in mind. Does that make sense?
Grounds for Love - Chapter 17
There are some chapters that just speak for themselves, so I'm just going to leave this one right here.
☕️🚦Grounds for Love - Chapter 17 - Green Light🚦☕️ By: @bees-bangles-banter and @coffeeandtheton
(I'm not ready to get completely sentimental about what writing this story with Bees has meant to me just yet, but I do just need to say that Bees told me she was not taking all the credit for this chapter, and I can't make her. But I can tell all of you beautiful readers that I had the absolute privilege of lurking on our doc and watching her produce some of her most gorgeous writing with that blueberry muffin scene and then again with the love confession. I've said it before and I'll say it again - NO ONE does a love confession like Bees.)
If any of you ever co-write a story, find someone who is basically your own private cheerleader. We still have to wrap this story up, but what a gift to work with someone as kind and giving as @coffeeandtheton is.
Thankfully, we have another story to edit and share with all of you soon. 🩵
Can it be Sunday already?
two more sleeps! we're so very close, but until then:
chapter 17!! was inspired by one very specific scene that had @coffeeandtheton and me screaming in the doc, feel free to guess why!
and because you asked so nicely, this is where Kate and Anthony are at the top of the chapter:
“My dress arrived,” Kate says as she works. “Oh. good. Are you happy with it?’ Kate nods, “It’s a beautiful dress. You’ll pick me up?” “Of course. It’s—it’s in the contract.” “Do I need to have four vases ready?” Anthony chuckles, “You should know the answer to that by now.” Kate shrugs, “Didn’t want to assume. Here you go.” Anthony nods slightly as he takes the drink. “Thank you,” he mutters and turns to walk out. “Anthony”, Kate stops him, and he turns, “here.” “What’s this?” “It's our new breakfast muffin. Greek yogurt and blueberries. A granola mix crumb on top.” Anthony takes a deep breath, “That sounds delicious, I can’t wait to try it.” Kate nods, “You’re the first, so let me know.”
(this chapter also earns one of my favorite tags - guess which 🫣)
“Do not finish that sentence with ‘complicated,’” Sophie cuts her off. “It isn’t. You love him and he loves you. You’re both just too stubborn to admit it to each other.”
I love this Sophie. And I love how this conversation differs from the one between Kate and Mary in the show.
I think when Kate forces out, “He does not love me,” there’s a tiny part of her that’s waiting to be contradicted. It’s important that the conversation ends with Soph insisting “You love him and he loves you.” It matters that she says it so resolutely, if only to lend Kate a little strength. Words have a way of tricking our minds. As absurd as it may seem, it feels different to hear someone else say what we cannot bring ourselves to believe.
I think I’ve realized that’s part of why I’m reading your story. I know these are fictional characters, whom I could also re-imagine in my own head. But I’m still here following your story almost as a weekly ritual by now. Because there is comfort in hearing someone else speak what is already in our hearts, and there is kindness in speaking those words for someone who cannot yet say them for themselves.
Sophie used Socratic method to ask follow-up questions and help Kate uncover what she believes and wants.
And in the end she asked if Kate’s happy. Because that’s how one treats a person they cherish.
Sophie really is a sophist and a true friend.
🩵 Thank you for this.
We played a lot with this scene (@bees-bangles-banter can correct me if I'm wrong, but I think Chapter 16 might have actually taken us the longest to draft despite it being our shortest chapter?). It was just really important that we get the tone of it right.
Sophie has been a sort of mirror for Kate this whole story. Kate got her opportunity to tell Sophie that whatever she had with Benedict was likely more than Sophie was letting on. And Sophie's question to Kate - “Are you happy?” she asks softly. The familiar words shoot straight through Kate. “Can you keep living with just bits and pieces of him and be content with that?”
Is nearly exactly what Kate asks Sophie in Chapter 9:
Kate just holds her tighter. “Okay,” Kate says when Sophie straightens. “I have one more question, and if the answer is yes, then I will drop it, and never question this arrangement ever again. But you have to answer it honestly.” Sophie nods in agreement. “Are you happy?” Kate exhales. “Can you keep living with just bits and pieces of him and be content with that?” “Two years ago I could,” Sophie admits. “That wasn’t my question.” Sophie sighs and reaches for her glass taking a long sip. The moment stretches between them a second longer before Sophie meets Kate’s eyes and simply says, “No. I can’t.”
But, it's always often easier to see the truth in others than it is in yourself. Especially when the truth is scary.
One thing I kept going back to as we wrote this conflict was an idea that Abby Jimenez explores in her latest book The Night We Met. It's this idea that a person will gravitate toward what they know even if it hurts them because the unknown feels riskier. I'm probably going to butcher this because I don't have the book handy, but in the illustration she uses, I believe she talks about a person who's escaping a building will often time go back through the same door they entered through even if there's a clearer, safer exit marked.
I think Kate can relate to that here. She spent five years thinking Anthony was cold, only cared about the bottom dollar, that he didn't have any interest in who she was as person or in whether her business succeeded. Then she enters into a fake dating contract, and slowly starts to see the real him over three months. But when crisis hits, she tries to exit through the familiar door so to say and she slips right back into that thinking she spent 5 years living in.
Sorry I rambled 😂. I love talking about these characters and I love that others are catching onto their quirks and spending time with them in this world Bees and I created.
Thank you so much for this beautiful ask and for your kind words. You made our day. 🩵
@coffeeandtheton wrote a beautiful look into our work and how we got to last chapter, and it's one of the many reasons I'm lucky to call her a friend and a co-writer
Grounds for Love - Chapter 16
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thank you for trusting @coffeeandtheton and my chaotic and very structured process, we're so close, so so close 🩵☕️
see you Sunday for even more!

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Hi! I have a random question because I absolutely loved Anthony’s first Oscar acceptance speech in Model Behavior. How do you think his acceptance speech would be at the first Oscars he won after he and Kate were married?
oh what a fun question!
So I don't know if the first award is an oscar (it might be a tony!) but the gist is the same:
"It's a wonderful way to make a living, to tell stories that we can share together, and while this is quite a competition, I'd like to take a moment to thank my favorite stories at home. it's every story I get to tell my son before he goes to bed, it's the story I get to tell with my incredible wife every day. Kate, thank you for everything you've given me, I will be using this award every bedtime you tell me I'm doing the voices wrong."
Grounds for Love - Chapter 15
A sort of mantra for @bees-bangles-banter and I as we write is "trust the process" and we can promise that if you just continue to trust the process, by this time next week, you'll be very happy.
Grounds for Love - Chapter 15 is out now!
Let’s check back in with who I’ve nicknamed to @coffeeandtheton as the most lover boy to ever love
High Summer - Coming Soon!
listen, @coffeeandtheton and I don't make the rules. And Simone Ashley's latest ISTG post very clearly proves that she's in dire need of a summer rom-com. so we wrote one!
Anthony Bridgerton grew up with the world’s greatest role models for true love, yet he’s still searching for a way to create a genuine home-work balance. Kate Sharma is the powerhouse behind a successful business she’s built from the ground up—a woman who hasn't taken a vacation in a decade and has little time, energy, or room for anything else. But when the universe (Agatha and Violet) decides to push them back into the same orbit, Kate and Anthony are forced to face the chemistry they’ve spent years avoiding. It’s a story of two people who the universe pushed together, until they decided to pull.
High Summer will be with you shortly (just let's get Grounds for Love Kanthony back together - for real this time).
Writing slow burn is a fascinating experience because I spend 90% of it wondering why my characters are such morons.
The remaining 10% is remembering I'm the one who made them morons.
I'm only 9% remembering I'm the one who made them morons and 1% wondering how long the readers are going to sit there waiting for them to stop being morons.
Anyone who reads my stuff at this point should understand when I say slow burn, I very much mean SLOWWWWWWW--but I promise it's worth it :D
Not me and @bees-bangles-banter yelling at Grounds Kate and Anthony to stop fooling around and just talk to one another...as we hunch over our keyboards and continue to write them being so blind for each other.
I have personally called my characters clowns for not talking. as though this wasn't my (and our) doing.
Sunday is almost here. Almost. 💃🏻
See ya tomorrow. <3
almost almost!
and @coffeeandtheton and I are currently on another doc trying to figure out the summary of our next story, which we have only 1.5 chapters left to write.
safe to say, we're here to stay 🩵

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Seeing in the sneak peek that Anthony indulges ice cream when he’s feeling down surprised me a bit, as it’s not exactly CEO behavior, which reminds me that this Anthony’s goto song is It’s All Coming Back To Me Now. And somehow everything makes a lot of sense 😂
The image of him singing that song in the car and shower is just so funny and cute that I almost feel bad about my lack of empathy 🤣
There were nights when the wind was so cold
There were days when the sun was so cruel
There were moments of gold
and there were flashes of light
When you see me like this
and when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
all coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
all coming back to me
It’s as if he’s singing his leitmotif. The lyrics are so apt 🤣.
Would you consider writing a scene where he sings this to Kate in public? 🤣
You and @coffeeandtheton write such a cute story! Thank you! Is this a favorite song of either of you?
listen, we have no idea how we got to It’s All Coming Back To Me Now. It was suddenly there. it happens to us sometimes. keys are typed on the keyboard and voila! Anthony apparently sings Celine Dion.
I don't think Anthony sings in public. But, let's see the first time Kate hears Anthony sing:
Kate unlocks the door, Newton barreling ahead at the first sliver of the open door.
"Ant, we're here!" Kate yells out. placing the keys in the bowl, Anthony's already there.
She places her overnight bag by the couch, Newton already curled up in his bed.
"Anthony?" Kate calls out again, wandering further into the flat, until she reaches his bedroom, more theirs than his at this point and opens the door.
She hears the water running from the bathroom, and then as she walks closer.
There were moments of gold
and there were flashes of light
When you see me like this
and when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
all coming back to me
Kate jaw drops, the voice of an angel that one, she remembers Ben explaining, but she didn't expect this.
Carefully, she closes the door of the bedroom and pads over the bathroom, taking off her clothes before walking into the steam.
"Hey you," she says, wrapping her arms around his waist.
"Hey," Anthony says, holding onto her arm, "I didn't hear you walk in."
"well you were a bit busy."
"I didn't know I had an audience," Anthony mumurs.
"well," Kate says, her hand traveling down his chest, "it did give me an ideas"
"It did?" Anthony gulps.
"a few even," Kate says, "if I touch you like this."
"yes."
"and if you kiss me--"
She doesn't have to finish the line, because Anthony has immeadtly lifted her up against the tiles, her legs around his waist.
"I think I get where you're going with this," Anthony says, bitting on her ear.
"you do?" Kate asks, already rolling her hips.
"it's all coming back to me," Anthony says, before pulling her into another kiss.
need Simone and Jonathan in a summer romcom !!!
@coffeeandtheton and I are working on it! Literally because of the Simone gif.