beepink.

i dont think ive ever felt so defeated and so disgusting in all of my life up until now. what was i thinking? how could i have been so fucking stupid and so fucking selfish? i dont deserve anything, especially not after what ive done to her. ive lost a good friend.

give a fuck bout yo feelings.

had my first actual full fruit beer drink thing yesterday last night and i can quite say i liked it. i felt very warm and slow and it was some of the best sleep i've ever gotten in a long time. i didn't necessarily get "drunk," i just felt like a heavy turtle and that feeling was nice considering wtf just happened

honestly all i want right now is an alcoholic beverage of some sort some nutella and pretzels and a nice long snk fanfic

i am so freaking scared ohmygod i don't think i can do this i really don't i'm so scared so scared so scarE D