This week is a real exercise in being willing to look dumb.
One of the things my therapist and I talk about is my resistance and avoidance and how tied up it is in shame. This week one of the senior engineers is out having surgery and the customer has been directing questions at me that I have no business answering and every part of me wants to leave the emails unanswered but all that does is feeds the guilt and shame and makes the cycle worse. So I've been sucking it up and sending responses that could be wrong or could look stupid and BOY IS IT HARD.














