Becoming Alona

After 4 years of transitioning, I am finally getting financially stable enough to pursue gender confirmation surgery. Now to find a doctor not too far away that will accept my insurance. Anyone have any recommendations for a surgeon near CT? And accepts Blue Cross and Blue Shield? Or a resource to find out those answers? Thanks in advance!!

I wanted to share some exciting news. I just received in the mail, my amended birth certificate!!! I am now officially female in the eyes of the government!!

I'm scared. I feel my physical health declining. I'm getting frequent dizzy spells, blurred vision, chest pains, muscle cramps, abdominal pain, partial deafness (like hearing completely goes for minutes at a time), and I'm constantly tired. I'd go to the doctor, but I fear they won't find anything like last time. I'll be left with no answers and more medical debt.

Sometimes I really miss being able to ejaculate. I want that release.

I've been lying to everyone. The pain has never gone away. I've just gotten really good at hiding it. I finally admitted to my wife tonight that the pain is still here. I didn't want her to worry but I'm having issues hiding it.

Out of no where, my abdominal pain returned something fierce. I can barely catch my breath, it hurts so bad. Praying it goes away as quickly as it started again.