Van Gogh; Top member of the BIPOLAR CLUB

what did i eat yesterday? Some croutons and vodka? 3 a.m. already? i should paint WAIT! NO! i should CLEAN my room and then kiLL mYSELF i swear to god if that shadow doesn’t stop DANCIng i’m going to flip a table i am so angry wanna see me break this plate and then shave the side of my head without blinking or breathing aHHAHAHahhhh.. no, you see, i need this particular shirt. i have three others but they’re in different colours and don’t have the pocket on the chest… S E X! i also need paint and a hat and the complete works of shakespeare. I can’t eat out because people are trying to poison and kill me unless someone orders for me when i’m not there or i go through a drive through or the food was pre-made or i order like nine things or i  a m  v i b r a t i n g . staring into the distance completely still because otherwise the world moves too fast. I should put out my cigarette on my arm. Is that FiRE? WHERES-THE-FIRE. Oh theres the fire. did you say something? What was i doing? I forgot. i haven’t slept in two days because if i go to sleep the government will take away my legs.

my psychiatrist, whacking me with a stick: the! base! treatment! for! mood! disorders! is! a! regular! sleep! schedule!