having a subpar birthday is fine cuz its like well at least that wasnt as bad as the birthday my friend tried to rape me!

can someone pleae come just shoot me between the eyes run me over with your car i don’t care i reallt don’t im just done !!!

if people knew how terrible i really was they wouldnt even talk to me anymore i just wish i wish i could be the type of person that everyone deserves but i just can’t seem to get it right. i’ve ruined every single friendship i’ve had a good person doesn’t do that a person who deserves to live doesnt do thsts how many people dead and yet the terminal fuckup gets to live im over it

im really on the edge here except i hate being annoying about it people have to go out of their way to give pity and it makes me feel awful i cant even GROW UP and handle this myself what no one understands is that it WILL be better without me around i hate how people treat me with kid gloves and keep staring at my fucking scars no one gets it im doing this for all of you

still wish i was dead!😂🙂

besutiful dream where i killed myself and everyone was happier… take me back! take me back!

when it happens don’t feel bad because this is the only thing that could make me happy and you’ll see that it’s better for eveyrone in the end

i hate when people say that i need help or need therapy because i don’t fucking deserve that! i don’t deserve to be happy. after every horrible thing i’ve done i desrve to be curb stomped on the fucking street. anyone who reaches out and tries to help is only doing thst cuz i’ve fucking manipulated people into thinking im a good person when if i really WAS a good person i’d stop whining and just fucking end it so ready and stop being a burden to every good person who’s had to deal with my everything. then everyone will finally be happy without me around

the funniest thing is everytime i was going through the worst moment of my life no one here ever once noticed or cared. 4 years. in class trying not to cry or with huge dark circles or fully dissociating and no one gives a shit cuz im a worthless faggot who deserves it. same people who are going to act performatively sad when i do it. don’t even bother buying flowers you should be out celebrating !!! this is what everyone wanted!