im haveing very fun

my name is jay i am 26 poodle who will never sample never use a sequencer so you are subject to all my mistakes

i love dancing n playing n partying, i love to smile. i dont like taking life so seriously n i dont like staying inside… art is da place i be vulnerable And the stuff i make art about is not about me its abt you. because everyone is feeling these things, im trying to express it and encourage more ppl to be ok expressing sadness. there is still this crazy stigma. its not romanticizing. its acknowledging it while its here, and then letting it go when its time for it to go

wrld pls bring me a budy to guide me thru the muddy with cool words to make it funy!

i kno its not a lot but after all the crud this melodys all i got!

helloooo 2026 been slowly transitioning to be less n less online, but also accepting it will always be a part of me and full detachment isnt realistic. ive found joy in clothing, dancing, and supporting local creatives. i switch fluidly between masculine and feminine, i have a lot of fun doing it :) prioritizing being around ppl different than me and new experiences in real life, but also learning to accept i will always be weird and behind. ive been learning a lot thru showing up to people and their places, regardless of how im feeling. but still resting when i need it. _______________________________________________________________ the only thing that matters is the tangible external world. nothing in yr head is real or ever happened. thru that ive been working towards detaching my ego from creative output by realizing how little art actually matters. i look up to different ppl now. many great artists online create fantastic works but have big ego's masked as anxiety (unbeknownst to themselves) and are severely behind on the things that actually matter (health, the sun, friends, conflict, forgiveness, memories , relationships, etc.). only thru others may u be deflated nothing is purely hardwork, its right place, right time, right advantages, right privileges all play a part. the time and ability to work hard at a hobby is itself a gift that the ppl who would flourish with it, will never have access to. many incredible artists will never be seen, i will never see and u will never see.

song abt the: detachment of pain and depression solitude being the leach On your Fat Ego ! detachment of trauma from ones identity recontextualized perspective of yr painful youth! it doesnt matter when yr dancing, it doesnt matter when yr hugging, the importance of showing up, the importance of smiling

caroline’s tune

somewhere inside of you