for three days the world was upside down

you 

i have taken every memory and every moment apart and apart and tried to put it back together 

i try to understand, i have tried to keep this distance 

but when it’s late at night and i’m walking around seattle, feeling the summer breeze 

just makes me think of orchard 

making apple pie, drinking way too much tequila

and sitting by the fire

laughing with our friends, playing that bey record just one more time 

you would love it here, although your heart is inland i think the ocean would lend you the cleansing salt you need 

i miss you, but i’m too much of a coward to say it to your face yet 

i don’t know how much longer i can take this gaping hole in my life 

i’m sorry 

and everyone from mn for that matter