so i actually STOPPED sleeping around as a way of coping with my myriad of fucking issues and keep it in my pants now so thats a win

lmao. you meet a guy who is obsessed with you after dealing with assholes who ghost you for years and he showers you with compliments and hes always telling you how attracted to you he is and how much he loves your body and seems like he genuinely likes you and actually makes you feel secure for once and then you have a pregnancy scare and he makes comments about how your mom body would be hot cuz your “hips would get wider and your ass would get fatter and your boobs would get bigger” and all that security and trust you built comes crashing down and you spiral into a BDD hole for days

idk if i see the point in having this blog anymore. it was beneficial the first few years but now what new is there to be said? i just bitch and moan about the same shit over and over. it doesnt serve a purpose to me or anyone else. i haven’t realy gotten any better, there’s no recovery to talk about like……whats the point

ok ngl but being single fucking sucks

bdd is ripping me a new one. old anxiety coming back and all. i was starting to do so well then this mf had to flare up and fuck me up. i’m taking a break from here til my head clears up. c ya

no wonder my ex never touched me i didnt realize i looked like THAT. i feel bad for any guy who ends up with me like maybe i should just let him watch p*rn cuz what i got going on is just depressing and sad

made the horrrific mistake of videoing my body cuz i wanted to see how i looked from behind in a certain dress........that shit was worse than i could have imagined my ass looks like i’m 50 and somehow looks flat and sloppy at the same time.......like my god

im screaming my white, blonde hair, blue eye, tiny princess nose, perfectly clear skin friend said she’s “not conventionally attractive” i am going to poop my pants