it is what it is

means the world to me and it’s gorgeous 😍

sometimes it's crushing. i'm not a girl. i'm not a boy. except for when i am of course. and even then, when i am literally experiencing a binary gender in a moment, i still know deep down i'm not 100% "man" or "woman." how could i be when i know that just a few minutes ago, i was feeling something else? how on earth do i possibly explain that? how do i embody it? how is there hope to operate smoothly as a gender nonconforming person in a stiflingly gendered society? i look at those fluid tiktok creators, showing how perfectly they can pull off both sides and i envy them, i really do. i wish that that was me so deeply i think it consumes me sometimes. i wish i could pull off looking like another sex as seamlessly and believably as they do, but i don't think i ever will. even if i could, i don't think that alone would make me truly be happy. even genderfluid culture is so binary that sometimes it hurts. i spend most of my days not feeling cis enough or trans enough and then i go to my little genderfluid safe spaces and i see them reinforcing the very system that oppresses us. i just wish i could see more about having that middle-ground, you know what i mean, that neutral, genderless appearance, personality, and feeling. instead it's like every shift and change in genderfluidity is described in terms of the binary– masculine or feminine. i know most people can't never look like they were assigned non-binary at birth or whatever but that doesn't mean it's not a valid desire. i just want people to walk up to me and not be able to tell, and when they pause to question it, i want it to be out of intrigue, genuine interest, not disgust. i want to just be mills! not a boy, not a girl, both and neither, somewhere in between and somewhere else entirely. i love being genderfluid, i just wish that we could figure out how to stop catering to people outside our community, and just be.

i never thought that what i was feeling could be put into words so well. thank you for this, honestly <3 i agree fully

Shang Chi just proved that daddy issues aren’t an excuse to be a raging jackass who can’t take responsibility for his actions and he is a legend for that one tbh.

“I love Steve as Captain America”, “I love Sam as Captain America”, and “I love Peggy as Captain Carter” are all ideas that can co-exist. In fact, they’re ideas that SHOULD co-exist because all three characters are awesome.

relationships with ur parents are so weird, arent they? like... i hate you for what you did, i love you because you bring me soup when im sick. i want to get away from you. i feel safe with you. i want to run away from you. i want your hugs. i wish you understood me. i wish i understood you.

bi people with preferences exist bi people who only ever date one gender exist bi people that have no interest in sex exist, the reason u run to make new words to define these specific kinds of bi people is bc u are uneducated on what bisexuality is

fuck it’s august??? what’s next? 2022???? can’t do this anymore

Me @ myself: it’s not that serious Myself @ me: …yea it is bitcj

widely detested female character my beloved