BbyGLeen

Guys what in the actual hell are the kind of DM's I'm getting????

To be loved is to be seen.

It's not that I wanted to die or to kill myself. It's that I wanted the life as I knew it to end.

Is it wrong to want more. I think that sometimes when I'm reflecting back on my life that I want more than what's in front of me. Not even partner wise just life in general. A part of me wants so badly to drop every single responsibility I have here and move and just forget everything. forget the life Had here besides my family and just move. I want to move a small hallmark town where everyone knows everyone and it really is a community out there. I want more for me and my life.

I needed to lose you to love me

My mind is empty and so loud all at once.

Did you ever love me or was I just conveniently to you?

to be loved is to be seen. do you see me? do you see when I come home after a 10 hour shift and I start cleaning and cooking dinner while you watch whatever game is playing that day. Do you see how I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and I'm just tired. Do you see me when I get so anxious I start to clean and just zone out because my mind is so damned jumbled. Do you notice when I try to de escalate the fight yet you insist on arguing with me so it frustrates me yet I'm the reason for every fight? I'm not perfect but sometimes I don't feel seen which leads to feeling the lack of love you always say you have for me. I'm just tired and at what point do things change. at what point do I decide I'm deserving of better?