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I wanted to share this with the accompanying chapter but I simply couldn't wait. Absolutely obsessed with this comm from @bby-bel of modern AU Eve and Astarion as Magenta and Columbia from Rocky Horror ā¤ļø It's so perfect and the attention to detail is just incredible. Thank you so much for bringing this scene to life š„°
Halloween chapter coming soon to an AO3 near you š
With Stars to Fill My Dream (28) - And All This Time You Knew, That I Would Put You Through
AGAIN, SORRY I'M LATE - I am the worst. I was so exhausted after holiday decorating last night, fell asleep around 9, and didn't wake up till 2AM - my apologies!!!! I keep getting afflicted with illness for some stupid reason, but I am finally feeling better, and while I may still be really not as present as I'd like to be on here because of the holidays, I will try to pop in as much as possible so I can celebrate all my lovely friends!!!
Anyway, enough about me! Thank you all again for being here and reading and following this journey this far! I am far from the finish line, but it feels so good to get here š„ŗ After SO LONG š¤š¤ I hope that everyone who reads can listen to the title song as well, I just feel that it really fits these two and I've been listening to it on a loop for a YEAR because of my wonderful friend @bby-bel who solidified it in my mind that this would be their song for the confession chapter š„ŗ
There will be some shout-outs below, which I'll put under the cut to not make this post a mile long- but thank you for being here and for reading when you get the time!!! I appreciate you all! š„°
The next chapter will be released in January!!!
Summary: When the summer dies... severing the ties... I'm with you always, always... Amidst hopelessness and fear, suspicion and doubt- Astarion has walked his serpentine path ever since stepping out of his pod. With his future still uncertain and cloaked in fear, Astarion mulls through his thoughts, trying to find a path forward- to salvage what little is left of his dignity and stand apart from what he truly wants, or to surrender to the warmth of ruby lips and tender affection...
Pairing: Astarion x female!Durge ā§Ė Astarion x Ofelia
Warnings: 18+. Mentions of past abuse and trauma. Mentions of past self-harm (minor), Canon-typical violence and gore.
Word Count: 13,539
AO3
BEAUTIFUL ART BY @bby-bel OF OFELIA AND ASTARION!!! IN THE CHAPTER!! AHHH!!!! šš¤š¤š¤š¤
Also, a big shout-out to some incredible friends who've encouraged me every step of the way š¤
To @khywren, who's been here since day one and was the very first person to ever read published Ofelia writing- thank you so much, my beloved friend š¤ For all your encouragement, for your enthusiasm, and most of all, your friendship. š¤
My second shout-out goes to @bby-bel, who I met in October of last year. A genuine, beautiful, talented person and incredible friend- I am truly honored to have you in my life, to not only get to comm an artist I admire more than anything, but to receive love from you in the form of beautiful art and songs- this is to you, and how most of the songs in this chapter are because of you, and your playlist you made for Ofelia a year ago this month. Thank you, my friend š¤
My third shout-out goes out to @pinkberrytea, who has shown me such kindness and love since we met- I have always admired you, my friend, and I am lucky to have you in my life. Your love for Ofelia and for me is enough to make anyone break down and sob. š¤ I keep it together, somehow š , but I will never forget the love you've shown me, and I will forever do my best to repay it. š You arrived at a time in my life where I felt a little lost and unsure if I'd keep writing this, and you showed me the depth of your appreciation for it and the depth of your friendship, and you are so important to me š¤
My fourth shout-out goes out to @caffeinatedmunchkin, who hasn't stopped cheering me on for a year- I hope to someday show you how thankful I am for the love you've shown me and my work, and for the amazing story you crafted for Ofelia and Astarion- I will forever be grateful for every word, and they're tattooed on my soul. š¤
My fifth shout-out goes to @andromedaancunin, who I only met this year, but feels like I've known a lifetime. š¤ I am so lucky to have you in my life, to experience your kindness and affection- you have such a beautiful soul, and are truly one of the best amongst us. š¤ I don't know what life would look like without you in it, anymore š¤ Grey and dull. You and Andromeda have been such a light in my life, from the beginning, and I am so happy that we've crossed paths- now I get to walk it with you by my side, and I couldn't be happier š„ŗ
My next shout-out goes to @loserscardigan š My beautiful, talented, lovely twin š You've been such an amazing person to get to know and share in our mutual interests š„° You make me smile and laugh, fall in love with my favorite cowgirl in existence, and your kindness hasn't been lost on me. I could go on forever about how alike we are, and how excited I am that we know each other and have met š Thank you for being so encouraging and lovely when I needed it most, and for caring about my silly story. š„ŗ I love you š
My next shout-out goes to all my pals, who I've got to know this past year and who I love so much- to @bum-dragon, to @arzen9, to @nerdalmighty, to @bloodinwine and @vividiana! You all have been so kind and supportive, have been with me through some truly sad times, and some truly good times- I thank all of you for being here and being so kind and accepting of who I am and who cheer not only me on, but each other- it's been such a wonderful time, getting to know each and every one of you over these past few months, more than before. š I love you all- Karina for your kindness and your enthusiasm and passion, Nat for your encouragement and love and friendship, Emma for your humor and genuine care and beautiful soul, June for your expertise, talent, and love, and Viv for your artistry of words and your kind authenticity š¤ I love you all so much, and I love all who've been with me on this journey and on this website š¤š¤
Got this amazing surprise from my dear @bby-bel š«ā¤ļø
I am in awe over how incredible this is and I am just so grateful for such a beautiful gift. Thank you, Bel. I love you so, so much. š«ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
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This is a gift to my friends, and the ones I've made this year and last that have changed my life š¤ I am so grateful for meeting all of you, and I am forever honored to have met all of you, and to share this space in the community- thank you for being there for not only me, but everyone in this picture and beyond- your love is a light in this world, and it's what makes this fandom the incredible place that it is š„ŗ I love you all!!
With Stars to Fill My Dream (23) - I'm Done Crying Over Someone Like You
Hi everyone!! It's been a bit of a rough week, which delayed this a little, but I did it!! I am really excited to finally make it into the Shadowlands- it's about fucking time š Anyway, this fic will no longer be slow burn in three chapters, so here's to that! š¤
ALSO!!! We have an official fic playlist now! Not the 500+ long writing one I usually listen to, lol. Featuring @bby-bel's lovely art of Ofelia and Alfira as the cover ā
Summary: As the party surfaces from the Underdark into a waking nightmare, they find horror after horror with each step they take. Astarion's denial of his feelings grows more complicated as they meet a High Harper, fix their hellion's heart, watch romance blossom, and find an unlikely surprise waiting within this little haven among the shadows.
Not even in trancing will he find solace from the unfortunate snag over his heart...
Pairing: Astarion x female!Durge ā§Ė Astarion x Ofelia
Warnings: 18+. Mentions of past abuse and trauma. Mentions of past self-harm (minor), Canon-typical violence and gore.
Word Count: 10,822
AO3
ā§ĖTag List: @khywren @pinkberrytea @bby-bel
Songs:
The absence of the sun is like a heavy weight upon Astarionās shoulders. The dark tears at his skin, snags in his hair. It whispers to him to join them in the depths of their obscurity, through the crevasses in the ground as gnarled vines stretch and try to trip him up and ensnare him.
All the while, the one thing keeping him going is getting to some kind of refuge- to Moonrise, if thatās all thatās left. To the source of this affliction, and whatever information lies in wait, anything to take advantage of and free him from his master.
Just some art for some mutuals and cool artists whose Tavs/Durges Iāve been meaning to draw. I intended to have these done yesterday for the Bg3 anniversary, but failed. Regardless, I hope I did your OCs justice! ā¤ļø
Feel free to go check out everyone listed - but, be aware that some of the blogs mentioned do have some more mature content. So, if that is something youād prefer to avoid, just make sure to read any descriptors or pinned posts/headers before you begin scrolling.
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ipad just shit the bed and all my artwork is GONE i want to scream forever
i have to pay for car stuff AND rent already and now a new fucking ipad bc iām in the middle of a commission iām so broke and pissed RRAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
With Stars to Fill My Dream (22) - We Don't Talk Much, Guess 'Cause Nothing Has Changed
HELLO HI I HAVE RETURNED!!! AND ON THE ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF THE FIC!!! I'm so proud of myself!! š„° I've missed writing so damn much, and I am so glad to be back to Ofelia my beloved š¤ I was in a rut for a very long time, but all my friends brought me out of it and helped me get back into the swing of things š„ŗ @pinkberrytea, @andromedaancunin, @bby-bel, @khywren, @vividiana, @bum-dragon, @nerdalmighty, @arzen9, @bloodinwine, @anacdoce, and @loserscardigan!!! I cannot thank you all enough for making me feel loved and getting to see you all create and make beautiful things was such an inspiration š«
HUGE THANK YOU to @andromedaancunin- Taylor, I cannot thank you enough for beta reading this and hyping me up the whole way through your read through. I am so grateful to have someone as incredible as you in my life, and especially someone as talented, kind, and sweet. š¤ You have been such a light in my life and I love you so much š«
Please enjoy this one! It took me a long while to work out how these were going to go, but I am confident in the path ahead!
Summary: The party finally faces their final challenge of the Underdark- taking on the Grymforge. Tensions rise in camp and add to the already growing unrest that plagues them all as they search for a way to the surface. As the sun sets on Act 1 of their adventure, Astarion comes to terms with an unfortunate truth he must face, or turn away altogether- will he embrace it, or push it all away?
Pairing: Astarion x female!Durge ā§Ė Astarion x Ofelia
Warnings: 18+. Mentions of past abuse and trauma. Mentions of past self-harm (minor), Canon-typical violence and gore.
All he wants to do is touch her. Itās a foreign craving as he dips his head to inhale her scent, wanting to revolt violently when he finds his fingers cupping her elbows automatically as his thumbs swirl over her skin. He leans in and indulges subconsciously, almost as if his body wants what his mind refuses to allow. She wonāt hurt me. He pushes her away at the thought, disgusted by it.
āAstarion?ā Itās soft and forgiving, her gaze searching his, and he can tell heās let the mask slip by the way she huddles in on herself. He canāt divulge his reasoning for doing so without explaining everything heās so far kept hidden- revulsion and shame bubbling like tar in the place where his heart should be. Heād rather die again than tell her what heās been through- why itās so hard for him to trust that she won't just throw it all back in his face. Perhaps she deserves more credit⦠but he canāt bring himself to risk the chance.
iām back from the dead (vacation) !! working on this super cute larkstarion piece for @arzen9 & i canāt wait to finish it!!! so happy with both of their facial expressions so far & wanted to share:-3
no pressure tags!!! @xxnashiraxx @bum-dragon @nerdalmighty @nerdalmighty @preciouslittlebhaalbae @badbloodwitch @bloodinwine @arzen9 @pinkberrytea @justabiteofspite sorry if i forgot to tag u <\3
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Rules: You flip through your work (published or WIP, doesn't matter) and share whatever little section you're genuinely proud of. Something that makes you smile or swoon or that tugs at your heartstrings just the way you want it to. Let's give ourselves a little pat on the back and normalize being proud of our work ā¤
Thank you so much for the tag @deadly-diminuendo! I'm sorry it took me so long to get to this, I guess I'm still struggling with imposter syndrome and all that, but I think this is a lovely idea and I want to pass it forward! The snippet I chose is from my ockiss25 collab with @xxnashiraxx, featuring my Mavka and her lovely Ofelia:
āCan I touch you?ā Ofelia asks, her voice somewhat sheepish as sudden shyness starts to also deepen the olive shade of her skin, giving it a ruddy undertone. In hindsight, she should have asked earlier, but touching someoneās eyes is one thing; touching their mouth is, well, different. Mavka nods timidly, and Ofelia nods back, clearing a lump in her throat. She breathes in slowly, taking in Mavkaās image, her face flushed, eyes wide and lips puckeredāadorable. Then, after brushing her own hair to the side, she pushes the pad of one of her tinted digits against the otherās bottom lip, feeling it give in and dip easily under the pressure. So soft⦠she thinks, trying but failing to ignore the growing need blossoming in her chestāthe persistent, nearly painful need to know what Mavka tastes like. Flowery like spring? Sweet like honey? Or maybe something unexpected, something that Ofelia never would have guessed; earthy like a rainy day, citrusy like lemonade. She wants to knowāmust know, even.Ā
āCan I kiss you?ā
The question is whispered rather than spoken, and Mavka nods again, not thinking twice. Worried that if she waits any longer that will be enough time for them both to second guess themselves, Ofelia decides to cover Mavkaās mouth with hers there and then, cupping the tieflingās warm cheek with the hand she had been using to apply the lip paint and resting the other on the small of her back. Raspberries and white teaāmore fruity than she had imagined, not quite as floral, initially light and mellow, then surprisingly rich. Addictive.
No pressure tagging @xxnashiraxx, @andromedaancunin, @khywren, @vividiana, @bby-bel, @arzen9, @nerdallwritey, @judasiskariot, @eraserspiral, @hellethil, @roguishcat, @inkymoonbunny, @nyx-knox, @astarionancuntnin, @emmy-dekarios-bg3 and @goodgirlgonebard!
So, so grateful for this commission I got from @yennefer-of-vengerbergs. ā¤ļøā¤ļø
These couldnāt be more perfect and I keep staring at them cause Iām just so in love. I had a few simple ideas of what I would like for these edits and I could not be more pleased with what she came up with.
Iām extremely grateful for not only such beautiful art of my loves, but also for a truly incredible friend. š«ā¤ļø