Mimi's Secret Garden

for a while now i've been thinking about everything that's going on in the world. everything feels so dirty and stained with hatred, and i just wanted to come back here and feel things less heavily, and also to remind us all that it is important to be kind, not only to yourself but to others. i always talk about how we should give ourselves a bit more grace and love but it is on rare occasions when i mention how necessary is to extend that affection to people. in today's world when everything is chaos, discrimination and divisions i still believe is important to show people their presence is always welcome and needed. you never know when someone is grieving, barely holding on or just needing a kind word and your kindness might be the only softness they feel today, i like to think of myself as a kind person but i'd be lying if i say my own problems don't trouble me and i don't shut down when things don't go my way, after all i'm only a flawed creature but even in my darkest hour i remind myself that it's our very first time on this planet, living this specific life, so please please please, be a kind stranger in people's memory, be the helping hand when someone needs a gentle push, tell them how beautiful their smile is, how much you enjoy their existence, share a hug or even just a fleeting laugh, we need that, we all do, some of us crave it without even know it and it's only in the most lonely time when we realise it.

when i created this blog, it was from a place of love and a desperate need to feel connection again, to feel a presence or to at least leave behind something that might help someone in need, to offer a bit of quiet peace, alongside the comfort of that one friend who never lets you down. i wanted to create a safe space for my feelings and my grief and for people to find companionship in my words. i had hoped that things would be easier by now but sadly the world doesn't slow down, despite this we must keep going because tomorrow will be brighter, it has to be. i’m going to try my best to be more consistent here again, because if these words can make even just one person smile or feel comfort, that is more than enough.

so whenever you are here, carrying something that feels far too heavy to bear alone, remember that when the world outside gets too loud we will always have this quiet corner to sit in and hold hands.

with much love,

mimi 🤍

hello stranger, i don't know about you but life has been hitting me hard, i've been trying to remain positive through it but it's becoming harder than i expected. these first couple of weeks of march haven't been very welcoming, spring is taking its time to show up but my allergies are feeling its presence already. how are things with you? are we ready to move forward from ugly february or have we found too much comfort in those cold and grey 28 days?

for me it's being particularly hard, what started as a little sadness has took over a big part of my delusions and now i'm finding it hard to see some light again, despite all this we must keep trying and wait for a better tomorrow, as always i try to find comfort in the little things, i'm still grateful for my life even when i'm not fully satisfied with it. a friend from work shared a very good advice with me and i thought i could share it with you, "when looking at the darkness of life always try to find some color", he explained that even when we're sinking we must always be grateful for our ability to swim and go back to the surface and i've been applying this to my point of view, the harder things get i try to sprinkle a little "it could be worse" and as silly as it sounds it has been working, i'm lucky in my own misfortune.

this february has felt immensely cold and heavy, i miss the warmth of spring already, even when pollen makes me sneeze every 10 seconds. so far it has been a year full of change and nostalgia, i'm reminiscing about memories that never happened and hugs i never got to receive but my heart is slowly healing from melancholy, or at least it's what i've been told... isn't it a bit unfair that we never know the "good old days" will be the "good old days" until they are? and then you can't never go back to live them fully, with more purpose, or you could go back but no one is really there? just little old you, missing so much from the past that you can't never see a future. that's how i've been feeling lately, like a memory stuck in someone's mind that doesn't even exist anymore, i hope i can keep growing this year, i hope we all do, i hope we can keep holding each other's hands and continue to grow and learn and heal, so yeah, february you've been a cold little bitch but your time is almost over, soon march will come and flowers will bloom again and colors always make me smile more.

sending hugs out there to anyone who needs them.

mimi 🌷

it’s been a hard year. my heart was broken more times than i can count. i struggled to achieve almost everything i hoped for. i cried more times than i remember and grieved in ways i never thought possible.

but i also learned how to love deeply. i learned how to laugh through the pain, and how to remember with love and gratitude instead of only sorrow.

i hope next year will be better. i hope we are all surrounded by people we love and cherish, and by people who love and cherish us in return. i pray we all get to see a better tomorrow, a brighter day, a pair of kind eyes in our moments of need and sadness.

i hope we receive all the hugs we didn’t get last year. i hope we heal. i hope we heal from the things we don’t yet have the courage to speak about out loud, from all the pain we’ve endured, from the grief, and from the heavy weight this past year carried.

last year was especially hard because i lost someone i miss every single day,someone who became my home and my safe place despite our ups and downs, the person this blog is dedicated to. i hope he is at peace. and i hope that everyone who has recently lost someone can find reasons to smile again.

happy new year, everyone.

𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓭.

ℭ𝔯𝔢𝔡𝔦𝔱𝔰: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔷 𝔅𝔞𝔲𝔪𝔤𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔢𝔫