The world will knock you down plenty. You don’t need to be doing it to yourself.

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When I was 5 years old my mom told me that the boy, who pinched me in my kindergarten class did it because he liked me. When I was 10 years old my father told me that the boy who pushed me on the playground did so because he had a crush on me. When I was 13 years old my friend told me that the boy who ignored you around his friends but treated you like a princess alone did so because he was shy. When I was 17 years old my sister told me that the boy who would sometimes hold my arm a little too tight or would lash out when he was upset, didn’t actually love me. When I was 19 years old the police told me that it was my fault he was too rough with me. That I should have stopped him. But ever since I was little I’ve been taught that when boys were mean that’s because they liked you. So why is it my fault I’ve been doing as I was taught. Why aren’t boys taught that being mean isn’t an act of love. Why is it the girls fault for not realizing he doesn’t actually love you. Boys need to be taught that being mean does not qualify as love.

February 7 You texted me about how I did on my physics test because I was so happy. You said fuck you when you found out I got one better than you. February 8 You told me you still really liked me but that it’s high school and you just want to have fun. February 12 You told me you were sorry you said anything when I told you I didn’t want to have sex. February 18 We got into our first fight because you lied to me to get into my pants. (PS. It was me). April 3 You’re going to prom with this senior girl who cheated on you. I haven’t heard from you in two weeks. April 10 I saw you at prom and your face just fell. I hope you regret it. May 8 Whenever you see me in the hallways you look pained and sad. Now you know how I felt. May 22 It’s my birthday and you didn’t say anything. I hope you know I’m happier with him then I ever was with you. June 1 I hope you’re happy with her recycled goods. He’s got what you threw away and he appreciates me. June 4 Goodbye.

I won’t tell you that i miss you instead i’ll mend my broken heart with the poisonous kisses of boys who are not you