el!

thought occurred: you know how in fried green tomatoes the food fight scene is just a direct standin for a sex scene? i just thought of the same thing but applied to the dance scene in zandalee between thierry and johnny... thinking thinking thinking...

dddIIEEE!!! DIE!! DIE! I WANT! i want to be. i want! WHAT! NO! i would like to be an interviewer. that is my dream job. but it is not possible. or maybe even something with film. but IT IS NOT! IT IS NOT! THERE IS NOTHING POSSIBLE! oh okay 😄 ok 😄 okay it's all good and everything is. FUCK! fuck! oh god!

realizing now that i am pulling up to the theatre in a speech & debate fit. sigh.

pain so bad you just curl up and stare at the wall

sometimes when you are sad you like to imagine someone consoling you. PROBLEM: i know of no people who i would feel comfortable with doing that. trying my best to brain blast something comforting but i might have to invent a new person named gleeb shnarpy... yes... gleeb...