Flying Carpet

If ever I am gone do not mourn for me for I am happy, I finally did it I finally freed myself. For a long time since I was a child I never felt accepted, happy or part of anything not even a family, you can think im selfish or cruel for my decision what is cruel was trying to keep me here trying to keep me in your world a world of pain, I wasnt happy I dont even remember a time I was happy, what is happiness? I always envied those with a REAL smile it looked warm it looked heavenly, I envied those of you surrounded by love just pure unconditional love, it hurt when I saw others complain about how bad they had it the ones I saw complain were the ones that had something so powerful, priceless. If you feel hatred towards me for my decision I hope in time you can forgive me but please remember this was something I have wanted for years, years of pain that seemed like centuries. I couldnt do it anymore I tried so many times believe me I did. I tried to hide my pain from others, I even cloacked my scars so I didnt embarrass you whilst I was here I tried my level best to make you all happy to smile but nothing was enough nothing I did, so I did something for myself for once I freed myself from torture from pain. I was a slave in my own body. - anonymous