batchofpigeons

'i'm coming, wait for me' but it's just you escaping that hellhole of a house you live in

'city of stars' but it's not about relationships and its about your future life

"The gardens of the Kharidge Castle are gorgeous, lined with rows of black roses and shimmering, wet snowdrops, all planted by the King’s callused hands. It’s a well-known fact that the shadows know his secrets, but Finley begs to disagree; Arun, his name is, loves flowers. He would spend his days in the gardens, when she knew him, on his knees, hands dirty rather than inky. She recalls, a vague, wisteria-smelling memory, and his voice floods his mind, as she gets pulled through these gardens." wrote this a while back and love the way i did it

earlier whilst hanging out with Goodest Friend, he admitted to me that he saw us, while playing Bomb Defusal Game, as our profile pictures. mine being Rarity, his being Helly R. and apparently it made him feel 'really awesome'. whatever floats your boat, my guy

headcanon posting about helen sharp from death becomes her because i'm VERY ill about her. 1. religious guilt in some way 2. zombie girl is her and madeline's favourite song (adrianne lenker) 3. child psychology is a song i see her in the most 4. requires her glasses but refuses to wear them because she's super self-conscious 5. is confident in the way she looks, except for if she's getting intimate with someone, so orders them to turn the lights out (BONUS! madeline teaches her that her body is fucking gorgeous) raghhh i love them... i love helen sharp....... ohmy..... girl who self-destructs.... i love you...

i've been trying to bar my language of anything abhorrently negative? just to make myself a little happier, and so far? it's working ."I hate that guy!" - turns into - "I dislike that guy's actions!" like... "[blank] *CLEARS* any other [blank]!" - to - "I prefer this, but i'm sure yours is good, too." just making myself more willing and engaging. and yeah this is probably a lesson everyone goes through at my age, seeing as i'm young, but i'm having a lot of fun with it. i like being conscious. i like consciously having fun, especially since most of my previous years have been barely-aware misery! i like consciously being happy. this is good.

i love introducing my friends to the fact that no-one is 'great', especially if they're famous. i won't name names, but oh god fuck it's so good to see them go through 6 stages of grief

i've always been deeply and fully obsessed with the idea of medicine cats. cats who devote themselves so truly to the clan, and some of them hate it. some of them wish it was different, but the stars guided them to this position and they know that fact. UGHHH I LOVE MEDICINE CATS I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !!!!! all of my favourite wc cats have been medicine cats i just find them SO intriguing!

i deeply adore & love feeling 'put together' but i know that this whole 6am wakeup thing is not the result of my valiant efforts to get a regular sleep schedule, this is just my nervous system on haywire every time there's even the SCENT of an alarm about.