Sabastian

I’m genuinely happy right now.

Snow concert was so fun. Had an amazing night and for some reason now I’m home and it’s four am and I’m watching my content and thinking about tonight and just having this weird anxiety about how people perceive me. I deleted some tweets and I’m just like weirdly embarrassed of myself and I hate it. I had such a good night, and I just was honest about what was happening tonight in a way I thought was funny. And now I want to delete everything. I hate that I saw that video of me talking about how the ups worker thought I was cis and I didn’t believe it. It happened to me. But my first thought was that no one would believe that I ever passed. I do all the time though. What’s wrong with me. I had so much fun…. I wish I was different

I wanna ruin our friendship but I can’t imagine life without it 🥺

I hate my life. I’m constantly trying to change it but I really don’t know what I’m doing. Sometimes I wanna kill myself but I’m not even strong enough to do that.... I hate living

I really fucking hate xanax with a passion. But right now it would be pure bliss.

Because sadness isn’t funny when it’s excessive

To say my Twitter has been problematic is.... lmao an understatement

The pressure to “man up” is something idk how to talk about

The place I have the some of the most fun experiences is also my greatest form of self harm. 

I don’t want to bring my dark cloud near you.